Imagines - The Hobbit

She...She Can't Be

Imagine: the Battle of the Five Armies is over. Thorin finds an item of Alex's clothing on the battle field whilst searching for her, covered in blood and dirt - this makes him believe she's dead. Upon returning back to the mountain, a surprise is waiting for him.

Thorin's P.O.V

It's over....it's really over. And everyone within my Company were miraculously safe - battered, bloody and bruised, but they were alive and breathing!! My first mission after the battle was officially over was to find each loyal member; I had counted all but one. Where was Hunter?? "After helping some of the Lake Town folk get away to where they could be safe, she joined the battle" Dwalin stated, remembering the young human save him as she passed through the fighting armies; the worry that was already beginning to build up increased upon hearing the dwarves statement. "You...you don't think..." Fili attempted to ask the dreaded question that we were each silently and secretly wondering, but couldn't bring himself to finsh the feared question; his brother shook his head, stubborn to such a thought "no way!! This...this is Alex we're talking about!!" he insisted "she can't....she couldn't...". As I thought of what to say and do, my gaze fell to the floor; the sight I was startled with froze me to the core. Hesitantly, I knelt down to the ground and gently, as if it could and would break upon the slightest tough, picked up something I recognised - a dagger that had a piece of torn cloth attached to it, covered in mud, dirt...but mostly blood. And yes, these items did indeed belong to Alex. Upon seeing what I had grabbed, everyone's eyes widened as they also knew who owned such items "that...that dagger is Miss Hunters" Ori stated as the horrific reality began to hit them, followed by Bofur "and that cloth...it looks to be a piece of her blue dress". This couldn't be happening...not to Alex. Not her!! "Search the battlefield!!" I demanded as I returned to my feet, the dagger and ripped piece of blue cloth held in my tight grip "she has to be here...one way or another" and with that, we hurried to scatter around the large area; I refused to declare anything official until I knew for sure. But...Alex had to be alive!! She had to!! She's one of my strongest fighters - it was a known fact!! I refused to believe she could have been defeated!!

We searched far and wide, checking every single body that covered the grounds; all were male!! But to my horror, Oin rushed towards me with Dori and Nori beside him, exclaiming how the Lake Town folk had already begun burning some of the dead!! "But...what if Alex is..." I couldn't bring myself to finish such a sentense as the rest of the Company joined us; I turned towards them, scanning their faces to see if one would reveal the twenty five year old we desperately wished to see - no such luck as they each shook their heads to confirm that they hadn't found her. This couldn't be happening!! "Laddie" Balin spoke gently as he placed his hand on my shoulder in a form of comfort "we've looked everywhere and Alex still hasn't been found...I...I think we have to accept that....that she didn't make it" his voice broke at the end as, although he was the one saying such a thing, he didn't want to either. I...I couldn't. My chest felt tight - it hurt, ached. I felt....numb. Alex...why did it have to be Alex?! Why not me?! Why did she have to....why did she have to die?! Such thought - the acknowledgement - made tears come to my eyes as I allowed my friends to gently guide me towards the survivors; we had searched through the camps that held the injured survivors as soon as we all realised Alex was missing. We each hung our heads low as we began to feel the sudden reality - we were never going to see our close human friend again. I was never going to see or speak to her again...but I had so much to say!! My chest hurt even more - it was as if my heart was breaking and shattering into a million tiny pieces. Alex always did effect me in strage ways, but this...this was making me feel something I had never felt before. Something I didn't understand. But it didn't matter - she was gone. She was dead.....because of me. If I hadn't allowed her to join my Company, she would still be alive....but I would have never been allowed the change to get to know her. To become her friend. To have deep conversations with her. To....to love her.