Sierra Nevada (XXX)

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History

We settled into another nice conversation and laughed a little before we arrived at the cabin. Avi waited by the car while I checked in. He wasn't exactly the master of discretion as he leaned against the driver's side door while he waited, but he remained out of sight for the most part. When I returned to the car a younger fan and what appeared to be her father had found him and were talking to him. I really didn't know what to do. I assumed that he would want to keep things between us, between us, like he used to do, so I planned on just acting like I didn't just spend the better part of the week in the wilds of the Sierra Nevada having copious amounts of passionate sex with him, because I wanted to, and discovering what making love felt like for the first damn time in my life or watching him experience the same. I went to excuse myself so I could get in the rental and he looked at me and smiled, but didn't move. I was very confused for a very long time, well it felt like one for me, but it was really more like a second or two. Then he said the most miraculous and unexpected thing I expected to hear from him, "Can I drive?" I just handed him the keys to both the room and the car. He laughed and shook his head. "Where am I going? Oh" He said when he looked down at his hand. "Okay. Well, you'll have to excuse us. Been out on the trail, time to go clean up. Say, what restaurants are around here, what would you recommend?" He looked at the gentleman that was standing protectively next to the young girl whose mouth was open wide enough to catch flies. I was sure we wore the same expression. His behavior was contrary to any that I might have imagined. I thought I knew what I was getting into when I chose to hook up with him. I found myself second-guessing everything. That was the most unexpected. He shrugged and reached over to close my mouth for me. "Too many." He just left it at that. The gentleman recommended a good steak place a few miles down the road. I talked to the girl for a little while longer while the men talked about food. We talked about nothing and leaned against the car and smirked at them. Their expressions when they finally remembered that we were there were hilarious.

The small cabin was just right. It had all the things that we needed. The shower was tiny as hell, but it was a shower. He let me shower first and was waiting in nothing but a towel when I got out. I looked him over from head to toe and he did a little spin for me then laughed, "I will be out in just a few." He kissed me briefly. I caught a glimpse of something a bit different in his eyes as I looked into them. Something was on his mind. I had watched him enough on the trail to know when something was eating at him and something clearly was. I tried to say something to him, ask what he was thinking, or even explain my shock at his behavior. "Corner me later and we'll talk. Have you locked your accounts yet? You should check them. Your phone has been buzzing like freaking crazy and I think Jonna called."

"You didn't answer?"

"Not my phone and you were in the shower." I nodded, casually kissed him like couples do when they have been together for a long time when he leaned in for one and walked into the room adjacent to the bathroom.

Kissing him like that struck a chord in me. It felt natural to kiss him so casually, just a small peck before we parted ways for a short while. I tried to recall all the conversations we had along the trail. Especially the deeper ones where he went into more detail than I ever expected to hear from him about his past, the stupid shit he did do, how bad he felt for it, how wrong he was, and his life in general. Something was up. He was not at all the way I thought he would be. He was loving and sweet, passionate and kind and very good under the covers. But we were out in the wilderness alone. After the whole mess and public smear he, no we all, went through the previous year, I expected that kinda. I didn't think he was serious about the things he said. I gave them little credit. I tried not to take them to heart. I expected tomorrow to be the last day I saw him in that capacity and looked forward to hopefully hooking up a few times in a few weeks when we were in L.A.