First Love [Luke Hemmings]

Chp 19

"Issac let me see Anne please?"

It's been 3 days since I've last seen Anne or even heard from her & I am currently standing in front of her door trying to convince Issac to let me in.

"Sorry Luke but she doesn't want you to see her right now"

She tries to close the door on me but I stop her with my foot.

"Luke please.."

"Issac tell me what's going on. Im worried, what's happening?" I begged her "she hasn't talked to me since I brought her back from the park. Is she mad at me? was it something I said?"

I should of never told her that I want her. She might thing I'm pressuring her on having sex.

"You did nothing wrong Luke, it's not you. its..." She looks away & stares at the ground "she is trying this experimental drug &well she isn't herself"

"Experimental drug? I thought nothing was able to help her?"

"Supposedly this drug targets only the cancer cells but it's been 3 days & she feels worse then how she felt before"

"Issac you have to let me see her. I..." I was able to hear a little jingle, mostly like a bell jingle "let me see her"

I tried opening the door but she pushed me away

"I'll tell her you came by Luke"

She gives me a sympathetic look &closes the door.

"Issac wait!"

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"Issac wait!"

Was all I heard as I closed the door.

I can't let Luke look at Anne like this.

"Issac.." I heard Anne as she jingled the bell.

"I'm coming munchkin" I try to enlighten my voice but I can't bare to look at her.

I grab more towels from the bathroom cabinet &a movie so that we can watch together. As I stand infront of her door I mentally prepare myself.

She is okay. it's just a rough patch. she will get better.

"Issac.."

"I'm here Anne, Im here" I take a deep breath && open the door &I look at her. My poor Anne is laying down in her bed with an IV stuck on her arm &towels everywhere. The windows are closed, the only light source is the lamp next to her bed. Her beautiful brown almond eyes are hiding behind black Ray bans & her once shiny black hair is now lifeless.

I hate seeing her like this.

"Who was it Issac?" she looked at me.

"Um it was Luke" I told her as I closed the door "you need to at least text him or something Anne, he is worried about you" I told her as I picked up the towels on the floor & replaced them with the new ones "are you still nauseas?"

"Not for the past hour. I didn't take one of the medicines so I'm okay"

"Anne you WHAT?!" I practically screamed at her " you are going to mess up the whole treatment"

"Isa im feeling better, isn't that the whole point?"

"No Anne it isn't!" I was practically throwing the clean towels on the floor &kicking the dirty ones " what time is it? We need you to start taking it again"

"Issac can you stop? you are literally mixing clean clothes with the dirty clothes. isn't the whole point of this treatment is to make me feel better?"

"No Dammit Anne!" I was putting all the clothes I picked up to the hamper but it closed on my fingers "Fucken shit!"

"Issac are you okay?"

"No Anne Im not!" I turned around to look at her. She was trying to get out of the bed "Don't get up Anne" I walked towards her "Im sorry Anne but you can't mess this up"

"Why not Issac? Im feeling much better"

"Anne, you are suppose to feel worse before you feel better" I help her get back to bed &I start looking for the medicine vile "please Anne, just keep taking it" I plead

"Why Isa?"

I ignored her question &kept looking for the medicine. Where can it be!

"Why Isa?"

"Where is it?"

I asked myself as I walked to the bathroom drawers.

"Issac tell me why!"

"Because I don't want to loose you!" I shouted at her "Anne I'm not ready for you to leave me, I'm not ready to live my life without you, I'm not fucken ready to put you 6 feet under!"

"Issac come here okay, please" she calmly ask me as she scoots over to the other side of the bed "come here"

I walk myself to the side of the bed &lay down next to her. She covers me with her blankets and puts her arm around my shoulder & rest her head on mine.

"We have to make the best of what I have left. I planned on graduating, going to college, have a family & get married but now it's shit cause I'm not even healthy enough to attend graduation & everything else is down the drain.."

"Anne Graduation is 2 months away, you will be better by that time &you'll be able to go to prom as well"

"Issac let's face it. my medicine is helping me with my headaches but this treatment isnt. my throat is dry &is killing me cause I've been throwing up for the past 3 days, I feel weak cause I can't hold anything down, i look like a freaking skeleton cause I've lost a tremendous amount of weight I can't even recognize myself"

"Anne.." I try to interrupt her

"All I'm trying to say Issac is that I wasn't ready for this to happen to me. Im not ready to leave either but we have to make the best of the time we have left with each other okay?"

I nod trying to not cry

"Now what movie did you pick?"