5SOS Adopted Me?

Fifty-Three: Home

MADISON'S POV

James opened his front door, and smiled down at me.

I don't know why I came here, but I did. I'm kind of glad I did, James always made me feel better, and even now as he's half naked and scratching his bare stomach, I don't regret coming to him for comfort.

"Are you okay Madison? What happened? You're soaked! Uh shit come inside I'll get you some things to change into." he rushes off after shutting and locking the door, saving me to stand awkwardly in his living room.

"You can change in there." he points to what I assume is the bathroom, and I nod, quietly thanking him.

I slip on his bowers and big t-shirt and sigh. James always smelt so good, and I do miss him. But I won't get back together with him. Maybe we can be friends, good friends.

Instead of talking when I leave, we just hug. He keeps me in his warm embrace for a few minutes, and I pull away, finally speaking up.

"I got into a fight with them." he stays silent, expecting me to continue.

"I stayed out late with their sisters, Lauren and Mali, and came home after midnight soaked from the rain with them. We didn't answer their calls and they were mad. They yelled at me, and Luke got furious, and told me to get out, so I did. I didn't exactly know I was coming here, but someplace in my mind I think I did. You always make me feel better." I say in one breath, letting him take that in.

"That's horrible Madison, but I'm sure he didn't mean it. You should go home in the morning, but it's too late now. You can stay here." I think about it, and thanking him.

"He did mean it, a few weeks ago they got into a bad fight, turns out it was about me. Luke said I ruined their lives and was a mistake, and I tried to stop it and was hurt. That's why I had that air cast. Luke has always hated me, and I don't think that will change." I sigh.

"Look, Madison. There's got to be a reason that he's like this, I don't know why, but you should try to figure him out." he suggests and I nod, us going into silence.

I did miss spending time with James, just for fun and to be there and stuff. We would laugh about the stupidest things, and we had those stupid anti-jokes that we'd tell, and they were the funniest thing to us, and I miss that.

I miss the little texts he'd send me before bed, and how our dates would always be cute little casual surprises. How sometimes we'd sneak to the park In the middle of the night, and how each kiss was longer than the last.

I do believe that our relationship wasn't a lie, but I don't know if I can trust him again, that's the problem.

"Look James, In the end we can blame the stars or tell ourselves that it wasn't meant to be, that it wasn't destined to happen. But deep down we know that the stars were not at fault and it wasn't meant to be. The fault was in ourselves."

"Did you just quote The Fault In Our Stars?" he laughs at me.

"I believe I did, i saw an opportunity and I took it." I shrug, us both minimizing our laughter, as not to wake anyone up.

For that night, we didn't sleep. For that night, we stayed up sitting on his living room floor, playing board games and telling our stupid little jokes; and for that night everything was okay again.

•••

"I can't date you again, but let's be friends." I say as we come up to the doorstep, the one thing I was dreading terribly. I didn't want to face the boys.

"Friends." he smiles. "Friends hug right?" he hugs me, short like our first kiss, and then he's gone.

I take a minute to compose myself, before I walk into the house. I'm greeted with the sound of footsteps running, before four boys embrace me in the tightest hug ever.

"Can't- Breath." I utter and they sheepishly release me.

"We were worried sick about you! Don't ever do that again!" Ashton says, hugging me once more, tighter.

"Madison I'm so glad you're okay oh my gosh." Michael hugs me as well.

Calum doesn't say anything to me, he just sighs in relief and hugs me. Not as tight though.

"Look, Madison I'm really sorry, I didn't mean it. I know we've never gotten along exactly, and I feel as though it's my fault." Luke says, looking at me expectantly, before he himself hugs be as well. I surprise myself by hugging him back.

"Now in all seriousness, if you ever do that again we will hurt you." Ashton chuckles.

"Where'd you go anyways?" Calum questions, and my cheeks heat up.

"IWentToSeeJames." I breathe and they look to me. "No, he just comforts me gosh!" I laugh, smacking Calum in the chest.

"we did find out what caused Luke to kiss you." my breath gets caught in my throat at the mention of that.

"When Michael pulled him out of the club, he was talking to a girl he knew from school. He liked her apparently, and he just wasn't exactly sure it wasn't you. So he kissed you, he's not in love with you." my breathing goes back to normal. I can get that out of my mind, but that doesn't make it okay.

"Oh thank gosh."