Paper Life

missing you

I've never missed you more
Has it really been that long?
It seems like yesterday when we met
You say you can't wait to see my pretty face

My mind wandered over the possibilities
Of what that could mean?
I'm not pretty by any means
I can't wait to see you too

I've missed you more than you know
I've missed the others too
I trust you most
I tell you the things most don't know

I can see myself hugging you
I can see us catching up
Yet, I can't bear humans touching me
It takes a long time for that

A select few are allowed
I wonder why that is?
You'd be allowed
You make me feel like I matter
That someone wants me around
Someone actually cares

I've been missing you
Things have changed
I thought you hated me
But last night gave me peace
A peace I haven't felt in so long, if only it'd last

Is it so wrong?
I've known you longer
We tell each other secrets
I'm unsure of his touch, needing space
Yet, you make me feel sure and safe
I don't mind not having space

We've had many conversations
These feel different and I dunno why
They've all been late
It makes the guilt strong in me
You've always been there
So here I am, missing you again