Today I am not ok
Today I am not ok because I cannot breathe
Today I cannot breathe because anxiety sucks
Anxiety sucks because Depression presses down like a brick
Depression pushes down like a brick because the thoughts in my brain will not cease spinning
Thoughts in my brain will not cease spinning because of a chemical imbalance
My chemical imbalance sucks because it is caused by genetics
Sometimes genetics suck because sometimes the people who gave you those genetics don't care about you as they should
The people who gave you those genetics don't care about you as they should because they started a new family
They started a new family because they weren't happy with their life before
They weren't happy with their life before because they were to young to become a parent when you came along
You did everything wrong; everything is your fault
Or maybe that's the depression talking
Today I cannot breathe
Today I cannot breathe because I am tired of worrying about my weight
I am tired of worrying about my weight because I want to feel beautiful
I want to feel beautiful so I feel comfortable in my own skin
I want to be comfortable in my own skin so that I can laugh when the world thinks it can fear me down
I want to laugh when the world thinks it can fear me down because that means that I no longer need to act as though I can hold the entire planet on my shoulders as I do now
Today I am strong but today I am not ok
