After a lot of thinking, I finally got my mind right to tell Colin. He deserved to know the truth, because he's a good person and he doesn't deserved to be lied to. No matter what the situation is.
As I started to approach my dorm's door, all kinds of thoughts started to fly in all directions. I wondered if Colin would hurt me, or break up with me; or hurt Drake and break him! Everything, stupid things, started to come to my mind. Then again, they probably weren't so stupid, they were just too much to handle.
My mind and heart started to back out of the situation because it was all too much to have to tell him, even if it was just a small kiss. In his head, it could be like I had sex with Drake. Hell, Colin and I have never even had sex yet! We were waiting for a special occasion, like our one year anniversary, but that may never come once he hears this.
I thought about it, and no matter what, I should tell him the truth. So I took a deep breathe, took hold of the door handle, and pushed opened the door. But I wasn't ready to see what laid on the other side of that door.
I saw Alina on top of Colin, MY COLIN, and they were making out. Her arms were either sides of his head, her black hair making a curtain around them. I could feel my heart slowly dropping, that tightening feeling in my chest. I literally had to grip my chest in order to stop that onslaught of inevitable pain. It hurt, more than I probably ever would've imagined something like this.
"Colin..?" My voice sounded like a five year old who had just caught her parents doing it; shaky, vulnerable, and utterly shocked.
Both of their heads snapped into my direction, and their eyes widened when they saw me.
"Jay-" He started, but I was quick to stop him. Pushing her off of him, he proceeded to approach me.
"Aline, get out." I snapped coldly.
She quickly gathered herself and left, not even stealing a second glance.
"Jay-" Before he could finish his sentence, I reached out and slapped him. His head turned into the direction of which I slapped, he was gripping his face in pain. I suppose it hurt, my hand was sure stinging.
Why I was being so hypocritical, I had no idea. Maybe it was because he made a promise to me that I was the only girl. Maybe it was because he couldn't have the balls to pull away from her like I did with Drake today. Or maybe it was because I was just completely disgusted in him.
"Drake kissed me today." For a moment, his face flushed red, and I could see the apparent pain that he was feeling on the inside. However, that was quickly replaced by something far from that.
"What?" He spat.
"I invited Drake over today-"
"What the fuck, Jay?!" He yelled. I flinched involuntarily, he had cursed, something that he never did. Only when he was playing, if even then, would he use major words like that.
"It was an accident. We were just talking and-"
"For what? Why were you even talking to him? I specifically told you to stay away from him!"
"And I was! It was just that someone told me some things, and I couldn't let them down!"
"So you invite him over here?! Without my permission and knowledge of you doing that! Jay, you don't know him like I do!" His voice was becoming increasingly louder with every word that he spoke.
"This can go two ways Colin, and you know that. What about you kissing Alina, huh? Because I could've sworn that you told me nothing was going to happen earlier!" I rebutted, causing him to just stop talking period.
