*Next Morning*
The first feeling that I felt when I woke up was pain. Not physical pain, but emotional. It was like my heart was ripped out my chest, chewed on, and then thrown back into its place. I felt like a wreck, which probably went with how I looked. My eyes felt bloodshot and heavy as hell. They burnt like crazy, and I could barely open them, but I eventually did.
I looked at the clock that was on the wall and saw that it waswas nine thirty (a.m.). I didn't concern myself with school, mainly because that was the last thing on my mind.
I felt the person that I was laying on shift against me, so I looked.
It was Colin.
He slowly and lazily opened his eyes and looked at me.
"Hey." He said in a deep morning voice.
I gave him a half smile, barely a smile, and sat up, "Where's Dani?" He sat up with me, "She's just getting some air."
I nodded then rubbed my face and sighed. "You alright?" He asked, rubbing my back softly. I shook my head 'no' and ran my shaky fingers through my hair.
"It's gonna get better.. I promise you it will."
Even if he was right, I just couldn't see that happening anytime soon.
"Um.. I'm sorry for how I acted last night, Colin, and hitting you. I just freaked out when I saw everything. I-I didn't know how to react; I know that that's not an excuse though." I whispered to him.
"You don't have to apologize to me. I promised your parents that I'd be by your side through everything, and I meant that. And this is gonna have to be one of those things that I just have to deal with."
I nodded my head, "And, I'm sorry for going crazy on Drake like that, I didn't mean it. I know he's your friend and-"
He cut me off, "Don't you ever apologize for that. He is no longer my friend, you don't ever have to worry about that. Anyone who hurts who I love is automatically dead to me. Therefore, Drake is dead to me. And, I just wanna apologize for what he did-"
I shut him up with a gentle kiss to the lips. Out of everything that's going on around me, he's the light in the darkness. He's the one keeping me somewhat sane. He's the one sticking to his promise to always be there for me.
"Did you just say you loved me?" I asked in awe.
He brought his hand up to my face, and his thumb rubbed across my bottom lip, "Only if you want me to, Jay." He stated in all sincerity.
Of course I wanted him to love me, I didn't know what kind of question that was. I always had feelings for him, but with Drake and all, I knew that I could never pursue anything with him. It was too disrespectful. But, now with Drake out the picture, we can do whatever we want with each other.
"Yes." I looked into his eyes, "I want you to love me."
A smile tugged on the corners of his mouth, "Then I love you, Jay."
I could feel the heat crawling up from my neck, to my cheeks. "I love you too, Colin." I said with so much emotion it made my heart ache a little more.
Finally, he let the smile surface on his face, "Say it again." I commanded gently.
"I love you, Colin." I couldn't help the giddy feeling that rushed through me when I said it. I really truly loved him, and nothing would ever change that.
He smashed his lips onto mine and sat them there for a few seconds before he moved. I started to move my lips on his slowly, and he caught up to my rhythm quickly.
