Whenever my thoughts were all jumbled up and mixed up, there was only one person who could actually help me without even helping me, and it was Colin. Just his words of love or even just a simple 'hey,' they were like music to my ears, and the remedy for a messed up mind. So, picking up my phone, I texted him saying that I loved him. He instantly replied back, not wasting a second more than he had to.
"I love you too. Are you okay?"
I cracked a smile before replying, he was probably the only person that knew something was wrong without me even having to tell him anything.
"Does something have to be wrong for me to want to text the love of my life?" I replied after a moment.
"I guess not lol. But I feel something's bugging you, so spill it babe."
"It's nothing, I'm just confused."
"Bout what?"
I thought about telling him, I really did, but I just couldn't. Something in me wouldn't let me. So I just changed the subject.
"Aren't you supposed to be with Mia?"
"Whatever you're worried about, don't overthink it. We both know you tend to do that. Just go with what you're feeling, nothing will happen that wasn't already planned to happen." He responded, totally ignoring my previous question. "And I am with Mia. But you're my first priority."
"Why can't you try and be inconsiderate for once in your life?" I sarcastically complained.
"Oh hush, you love me. And I gotta go, I'll text you a little later. Love you, babe."
"Love you too, have fun."
Pushing my books off me and putting them aside, I laid down in bed. Although I knew Colin wouldn't be on board with me with what I was about to do, he did tell me to do what I was feeling. And honestly, it was up to me. I did deserve answers as to why he did it, I needed that. I needed closure to the whole situation. And pushing it aside like nothing happened will only bring more pain for then necessary.
Before I changed my mind, I grabbed my phone and dialed in his number. I'd usually have it on speed dial, but since the accident I ridded myself from anything that had anything to do with him, brought back to many memories to have them. As the phone rang in my ear, the courage that was built up to do this, was slowly diminishing from me. What if he picked up, and I had no idea what to say? What if he didn't pick up, and he called later when Colin was around? What if-
"Hello?" His voice rang louder through my brain than my own thoughts. And just like I feared, I couldn't find the words to speak.
"Hello?" He said, his voice a bit more impatient.
"Um, h-hey. It's uh.. m-me." I felt so stupid for fumbling with my words, but my brain kind of just stopped working whenever Drake was in my head.
"Jay?" He breathed out.
"Yeah," I nodded like he could see me, "um, this wasn't necessarily my idea, but I actually followed it through so.. do you have a little time to.. um, come over?"
His silence on the other end of the line did nothing but add to my nervousness. "But, if you don't have time or if you just don't wanna come over, it's-"
"No!" He slightly panicked, "I mean, I have time. If you want me over, then I'm on my way. But.. what do you need me for?"
"I need closure.." I waited for a minute before I spoke up, "So, can you be here at five thirty?"
"Um.." There were shuffling sounds in the background through his end, making me think that he was either cleaning up or rushing to do something. "Yeah, I can be there."
