Distrust//Kyle Kuzma

T H I R T Y F I V E

*August 28*

Kyle's POV

I sighed as I sat on my couch and watched Bad Boys II. I thought it would cheer me up, but it kept reminding me of her. I sighed as I reminisced on the first time she ever came over to my apartment. We ate vegetable soup and watched Bad Boys II that night. That was also the first night that she cuddled with me. I was broke out of my trance by my phone ringing.

"Hello?" I answered not even checking who was calling.

"Hey baby, how are you?" My mom's voice rang through my ears.

"I'm fine. How are you?" I replied shortly.

"I'm good. How's Alivia?" She asked making my heart hurt.

"I'm gonna be honest with you mom, we broke up." I took a deep breath as I thought about her.

"Oh, honey, what happened?" She asked obviously hurt and concerned.

"I guess we just weren't right for each other," I told her trying not to go into detail.

"Did she break up with you?" She asked making me sigh.

"No, I broke up with her," I told her as I laid back on my couch.

"Why baby?" She asked curiously.

"I was angry, upset, and scared," I told her as my eyes burned with tears.

"About what honey?" She asked making memories flood into my head.

"Our last night in Flint, she was half asleep and I told her that I loved her not knowing if she heard me or not. Then the night of my birthday I got really drunk, but I vaguely remember telling her that I loved her multiple times. Yesterday I said that I loved her during an interview and when asked if she loved me she replied with 'I think we all know that answer'. We went home and I asked her if she actually loved me and it snowballed into a huge fight." By the time I was done talking I had tears in my eyes.

"Honey I hate to say it but I warned you about this when you first met her. Sweetie, one argument shouldn't lead to a breakup." She said making me feel bad.

"I know mom. I was just not dealing with it well. I wanted her to love me back so bad. I spent many nights awake trying to figure out why she didn't trust or love me." I said as I thought back to those late nights.

"What did you tell her when you broke up with her?" She asked sounding kinda upset with me.

"That we were wasting our time and basically dating for the hell of it if she has no love or trust for me," I told her as regret filled my head.

"Kyle, it was obvious that you were angry, and just because you two were angry doesn't mean that you two should break up. You may not have seen it, Kyle, but she had so much love and trust for you. Would she have gone to Tyrone's party if she didn't trust you? Even after I warned you both she still trusted that you would protect her. Kyle, it doesn't matter if it was self-conscious or not she had so much love and trust for you." The moment she said that I couldn't decide if I wanted to be angry at myself or cry.

"I didn't even think about that." I sighed as a tear fell.

"What are moms for? Sweetie, give her some time. She's probably hurt just as much as you are. Just don't give up on her Kyle. Everyone is capable of trusting and loving regardless of their past. I've seen the way you are with her. You two need each other and fit together so well. I love you baby and I'm sorry you're hurting right now." She spoke making me think.

"Thank you, mom. I love you too." I replied before we said our goodbyes.

I sighed as hung up and my lock screen popped up. It was a picture that a fan took of me and Alivia after one of her games. She looked so good in her uniform and with messed up hair. I liked her best that way. No makeup or hairdo could change how she looked after she worked her ass off on the court. I sighed as I opened up my phone. I went through multiple pictures and snapchats of us together. I sat there on my couch reminiscing on the gift that I had but pushed away because of my stupidity and anger.