<Elise pov>
School goes by normal, with me meeting Zehr and Kai and slowly getting close to them.
About 2 weeks after school started, I wake up really early, cuddled up with Xan. I shake him, knowing that school awaits me, unfortunately, and fortunately.
He wakes up and looks at me with soft, dazed eyes. He's mine.
"Hey," he smirks at me.
"Hey," I bite my lip. My heart is beating so fast. It always does around him. I don't know how this works. I don't know if I just go with it or do I try to do something for him? I decide to just pop the question I have been waiting to ask for so long.
"Um, should I call my friends over today?" I mutter. I really want them to meet Xan. Especially Kai. Kai could use a friend like Xan.
"Sure, babe." I almost laugh at the blush creeping up on his face as he calls me 'babe'. Though he is two years older than me, mentally, he's as innocent as a toddler. "I'd love to let them know about the time you tried to skateboard down our mansion stairs only to fall face-first on Mr Enfeild. Or, about the time you tried to eat that raspberry scented candle because it smelt o-"
"Stop," I groan out. My face is redder than that raspberry scented candle. I still remember that candle. I haven't bought a candle ever since because of my shame.
"Can you pleaseeee not embarrass me tonight? I met them just yesterday, and I really like them," I plead.
"Sure, but on one condition." He says. His eyes slide down from my eyes to my lips.
"Go on." He doesn't say anything but just gestures down to his lips.
"I have morning breath."
"Oh, I wish I cared."
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<Kai POV>
I stand in front of my mirror and scan myself. My eyelids are webbed with capillaries, nerves and veins. My green eyes are weighed down by my dark circles. My hair is tousled sort of like what I imagine medusa's hair to be like but it looks worse if I comb it, so I leave it this way. My skin is caramel but tinged with green because of my lack of care and sunlight. My lips are chapped dry. I lick them. My plain black tee is a bit too tight for my liking, showing my thin arms and hollow looking body. But I am not scrawny. I do have slight muscles due to my intense violin playing, but I still look like a wingless bird.
While I look at myself eerily, only one name floats through my mind. Elise. What does she think of me? Does she think I look good? Is it possible for her to have feelings for me?
I know these thoughts are stupid. El is too good for me. And I am pretty sure she-she likes her roomie/ bodyguard situation. But maybe she doesn't. Maybe if you tell her how you feel, she'll like you back. These are the stupid thoughts that orbit my mind. When did that voice in my head turn so optimistic? Of course, she doesn't like me like that. And telling her how I feel is just putting myself up for more heartbreak. And, how in the world do I feel? I don't know. Do I have feelings for a girl I barely know? Whatever it is, I am going to get through it acting normal. She can't know how I feel. I can't lose her.
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It's the third period, geography, which means I have El next to me. She is telling me about her favourite candy. She loves sour candy. Maybe I should buy her some candy. STOP! You cannot just go around buying her candy because she likes it. You'll make whatever you feel obvious! You don't even know how you feel! You don't deserve her and she doesn't want you so just STOP! I shake my head hoping to shake off these thoughts
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Insanity || Ongoing
Genç Kurgu"There are so many things worth living for, and yet that one thing that makes you want to end it all overcomes all the good." "There are so many things that make you want to die, and yet that one thing worth living for overcomes all the bad." Two o...
