Diary ng Umaasa

Hope

In that night I feel that I'm the most lucky woman on earth he grabs my hand and started to walk without breaking our hands holding. He made me feel special. He made me feel that this night will never end. It's like a fairytale, He's my prince and I'm his princess. But I know fairytale doesnt exist. We will go back to our reality and back on how our life should be. He is the most handsome of them all. I want to yell at them and say that this guy is my bestfriend,but will never be his girl. I want to confess but I know that my feelings will be a hindrance and I think this will totally ruined our friendship. I want us to be together as buddies. Because I truly believe that relationship will end and friendship doesnt.I want to treasure him forever. But I know someday he will just ignore and forget about me. I'm not something special. There's a lot of girls out there waiting for his attention. And maybe I'm not his type or either he likes. I am a boyish and not a lady type of girls. I'm just me simply me. I'm loud and careless, I always yell and also a warfreak. I walk like a boy, I dont want others to teach me what to do. I am a strong independent woman. And I think that I dont deserve him. He's a good guy he is closer to perfection while me? I'm just a simple girl who wants everybody to be happy. I dont want everyone to suffer. I'm emotional distress. Someday I hope and pray that he truly finds his happiness even without me. I just wish him all the best in life.
If you read this letter I'm very sorry for causing you too much headache and stress. Also I want to say sorry for giving you an awkward athmosphere. I did not intend to do it. It's just that I dont want to ruined our friendship and try to forget my feelings for you. I just write this letter because I know we will walk into different paths of our life separately. I just hope that you made this an inspiration to continue your next journey. I will never forget you. Saranghae Mi amore💕😘

----- His bestfriend for life-----