I Won't Let You Go

First Chapter

Have you ever experienced chaos within your heart and mind? Have you ever been in a love maze?

Those are things I never thought I would experience.
Life is truly full of surprises and destiny wasn't that kind to not play you around for a bit before giving you happiness.

Well, matagal nang magulo ang puso at isip ko.
At dahil lang iyon sa iisang tao.
Si Tristan Kim. He has been my best friend since we were young.
At oo, siya ang gumulo sa nananahimik kong puso at isip.

I started to notice my feelings during first year highschool kami. That time when he introduced his first girlfriend to me.
I was shocked, when I never felt the slightest happiness for him.
Instead I felt my heart throbbed in pain.

I'm Bi. I am still attracted to girls, get a hard on because of big tits and legs.. And I'm loving the attention that the girls are giving me as well. Besides Tristan is the only guy I find attractive for now. And don't expect me to act like a weak jerk who runs away and cry in the corner when I see him flirting. Yes I'm crying, but inside. There's no point in crying out loud for every little thing.

Yeah .

Tawagin niyo na akong Martyr, Tanga, bobo, Masochist, name it. I don't care and I will never.
And so, here I am. Sitting right in front of him while he was being lovey dovey with Trisha. His girlfriend for a year now.

Wala naman akong problema kay Trisha since mabait naman talaga siya, Hindi siya yung mahinhin masyado. Hindi rin siya maarte at magaling siyang makisama.
Maganda rin siya, sexy, maputi at matangkad. And she is one of the reasons why I don't have the plan to confess this stupid feeling I am having for her guy.

Ah, right. I haven't introduced myself yet. I am Kian Steve Park. Half american and half Korean. Obviously, my father is the Korean guy. Laki naman ako sa pilipinas because of my mother's bestfriend, Tita Eloisa who took me here when I refused to stay in Britain with my parents.

I am 17 years old. Last year in junior high. 5" 8' in height. 50kg in weight. Eye color is navy blue. Hair color is charcoal black, it means it's very very black. I have a lean physics but don't get the wrong idea. When I take of my clothes, every woman even gays will drool over me.
I have the muscles and the abs. Hindi lang halata kapag nakadamit since pangit rin naman yung masyadong maskulado.

"Kian, hindi ka ba kakain? Kahit juice? Cake?"- tanung ni Trisha.

I smiled bago ako umiling.
" Naumay ako sa sweets. Nasobrahan yata ako ng sugar"

Tristan raised a brow.
"I haven't seen you eating any sweets."

Ngumisi ako sabay sandal sa upuan.
"Naumay ako. Kanina pa kayo naghaharutan sa harap ko eh. Pati yung mga langgam hindi kinaya ang sweetness niyo kaya nagsialisan."

They paused and looked at each other bago kami nagkatawanan.
Napailing nalang si Tristan.
"Kung ano anong sinasabi mo Kian." Natatawa namang komento ni Trisha.

I just smiled. This view.. Even though it pains me a lot.. I admit.. They look good together. They are happy together. And even though I haven't even confessed to Tristan, I am thankful that I included in the picture. This heartwarming jamming with them, even if just as a friend.. I will cherish it.

When the bell rang, nagsitayuan na kami at bumalik sa room.
Nakapatong ang baba ko sa likod ng kamay ko bilang suporta habang wala sa mood akong nakatingin sa labas.
Pumasok naman ang teacher namin pero hindi ko pinansin at nakatingin lang sa labas.

"Settle down. We have a new classmate. Come in and introduce yourself young man."- sabi ng teacher.

"Good day. The name's Ice Claude Jiang. 17. Nice to meet you."

Napatingin ako sa harap when I heard that chilling voice that complimented his name perfectly.
I froze.
I think this guy took the second place.

The second guy whom I found attractive despite being a fellow guy.
His skin is white. With his light brown hair and deep blue eyes. He has a pointed nose. His lips are those they call sexy lips. Thin and red. His height may be.. 5" 9'?

The school uniform which is a maroon business like jacket, long sleeve polo shirt, maroon necktie and maroon slacks that was almost like a skinny jeans kasi fit siya, hindi straight cut, looks so good on him.
Pauupuin na sana ni ma'am yung Ice Claude nung may sumilip sa pintuan.

"This is the chosen candidates for the School Council, by the School Dean himself. Please Come out when your name is called.
Trisha Adams.
Hiyuri Thompson.
Seven Villanovan.
Kian Steve Park.
And Ice Claude Jiang."

Napatingin ako sa lalaki sa harap and I saw him scrunched his brows.
"Why me? I just arrived as a transferee."

"The school doesn't care about that. The candidates here are chosen basing it from the grades, good conduct and school profiles."

Hindi naman na nagtanong si Jiang at sumunod sa lalaki.
Naglakad narin ako at napatingin kay Trisha. We smiled at each other at sabay na pumunta sa School Council Office.

When we reached there namangha naman ako sa nakita ko. Malawak ang opisina. kompleto ang mga gamit at bawat officers ay may assigned na mesa.

Ang pinakamalawak na mesa na puno ng files at nakapwesto sa dulo ng room ay para sa president. Ang ibang mesa na nakaayos na nakagilid palibot sa room ang sa iba. Ang dalawang mesa sa right and left ng table ng president ay para sa vice at secretary.
Ang napakahabang mesa sa gitna na napapalibutan ng mga upuan ay ang ginagamit tuwing may meeting.

They thought about the organization properly.
And so after dumating lahat ng mga tao ay nagsiupuan na kami sa mahabang mesa sa gitna. Nandito rin si Tristan.

Inexplain ng secretary ng dean ang mga dapat at hindi dapat gawin ng mga officers ng school council.
After that ay sinabi niyang nakaasign na ang mga positions namin basing it from the aforementioned basing criterion.

And this is the officers.
President: Ice Claude Jiang
Vice President: Kian Steve Park
Secretary: Trisha Adams
Treasurer: Tristan Kim
P.I.O: Hiyuri Thompson
Business Managers: Seven Villanovan and Ivan Mendez
Sergeant: Lay Velasquez and Smith Young.

After ng mahabang meeting ay nagsialisan nadin silang lahat.
Nakatunganga naman ako sa upuan ko at napagdesisyunan kong pumunta sa table ng vice para icheck ito.
So far malinis naman at akalain mo nga naman.. Swivel chair pala lahat ng upuan dito maliban dun sa nasa table na mahaba.

Napangisi ako ng wala sa oras pero nagulat ako nung may bumuntong hininga sa may bulletin board.
Napaangat ang tingin ko doon at nakita ang nakatayong si Jiang.
Even his back is attractive huh..
Although I am more attracted to Tristan. His lean body and his posture worth a compliment.

He sighed once more bago nagsalita in a monotonous way, "Don't they think that this is way too great of responsibilities for a new comer?"

Is he being humble or he's not into this kind of things?
"You must be great that's why."

Napansin kong napaigtad siya sa gulat at agad na napalingon sa akin.
I bet he didn't realize he wasn't alone as well.
So I just smiled and raised my palm.
Saying hi in a timid way.

He shook his head and tried his best to smile before it fade away immediately that I almost thought it was my imagination.
He spoke at isinuklay ang kamay niya sa buhok, "Sorry. I didn't realize you were here."

I chuckled, "It's fine, really."

He glanced at me before looking away, "what were you saying earlier?"

"I said you must be great that's why you were chosen for that position."

He shook his head gently, "Nah.. I wasn't.. I'm just a trying hard fellow. There's nothing great about me.. Besides, I'm not good about responsibilities so.. I bet I'm counting on you mr. Vice President."

I smiled once more, "Sure!"