I Won't Let You Go

Why do you have to do this?!

Ice Claude's
A month passed. Two months.
And with those months pass by, I've gotten close with Kian.
I have been observing him as well.
And his feelings for his friend was still great.. But the pain was growing as well.

"Okay. That's it for today. We will discuss the remaining details tomorrow. Thank you for your hardwork." Sabi ko at tumayo na sa mesa.

"Thank you for your hardwork!" Sabay sabay naman nilang sabi at nagsitayuan na.
Nakamasid lang ako sa kanila nung biglang mahilo ang secretary, si Trisha.

Mabilis naman siyang nasalo ni Tristan at niyapos.
"Trisha, are you okay?"

Napaungol naman si Trisha at kumapit kay Tristan.
"I feel heavy."

Sinalat agad ni Kian ang noo ni Trisha at ikinumpara sa sariling temperature.
"She's having a fever. Mabuti pa dalhin mo siya sa clinic."

Tumango naman si Tristan. Naglakad na silang tatlo palabas. Susunod na sana ako pero nagring ang phone ko.
It was a new number.
Napakunot noo ako at sinagot.

"..."

"Hello?" Tanung ko after some hesitation.

"... Ice."

I shivered upon hearing that voice. I almost ended up the call kung hindi ko lang napigilan ang sarili ko.
".. W- what do you need... Dad?"

"How was it? Living alone?"
Tanung niya out of nowhere.

"Better than expected. Why are you calling" malamig kong tugon dito.

"Next month, November.. I will send some people to fetch you up. You're coming here in Britain."
Sabi niya.

"I'm in the middle of stu—"

"I don't care. You can take advance classes here. And just for you to know Ice Claude. I'm not asking for your opinion nor a request.. This is an order and you cannot decline."
Sabat niya sa sinasabi ko.

Napakuyom ako ng kamay at nanginig sa galit at inis.
"Why are you doing this?!"

"You'll know when you arrive. I will contact you again. Better say bye to all your friends in that country.. You might not be able to go back."

Sasagot pa sana ako pero pinatay na niya ang tawag.
I couldn't help it but smash my phone on the floor.
I slammed the table and shouted due to frustration..
Fuck..

I need to see my Kian.. I'll calm down if I see him.

Lumabas na ako at naglakad papunta sa clinic.
Napakunot noo ako nung makita ko siyang nakatayo sa may pintuan at may hawak na bottled water pero hindi naman pumapasok.

Lumapit ako at sinilip ang mga tao sa loob.
I saw Tristan holding Trisha's hand while they were both smiling to each other.
"You need to get better soon okay? I love you."
Sabi ni Tristan.

He stood and leaned towards Trisha.
I covered Kian's eyes before they kissed.
Papalag pa sana si Kian pero bumulong ako sa kanya.

"You're really an idiot."

Tumigil sa pagpalag si Kian.
"Claude?"

Iniharap ko siya sa akin at tinitigan bago niyakap ng mahigpit.
"Claude–"

"I love you Kian."

Nanigas siya sa kinatatayuan dahil sa sinabi ko.
I even heard him gasped.
"I love you.."

Pag uulit ko sa sinabi ko at mas hinigpitan ang yakap ko sa kanya.
"That's why it pains me so much. Nasasaktan ako kapag nakikita kitang nasasaktan ng ganito. Masakit na makita kang nagpipigil at nagdurusa ng mag isa. Masakit na makita kang nahihirapan nang ganito pero wala kang makapitan."