I Won't Let You Go

last day

Kian Steve's
After so many things happened, finally it's the last day of our vacation here. And the last day of the festival here.

It was really fun lalo na at wala nang nagpakitang Caldrix.
After I kissed him that day ay nag peace sign ako at tumakbo palayo.
And the next day, we continued to hang around like nothing happened.

At ngayon ay ang inaabangang concert at fire works display. Bago kami pumunta sa Concert area ay pumunta muna kami sa souvenir at pasalubong booths.
Binilhan pa ako ni Claude ng ilang tokens at magkapareho naming shirt at jacket.

Palagi naman siyang nagpapatawa kaya napapatawa ako while he smiles while looking at me.
I was really enjoying his company.
Hinintay lang namin si Morris at sabay sabay kaming pumunta sa concert area.
Nagkantahan kami at nagsayawan pasabay sa mga nasa entablado.

I excused myself nung patuloy na mag vibrate ang phone ko.
I looked at the caller, it's Tita.
"Hello?"

"Kumusta ang vacation niyo?"

"Okay lang naman po. Bakit po kayo napatawag?"

"Tristan's parents just called. Asking If their son was here so I said no because you're out of town. I just wanna ask kung may nasabi ba si Tristan sayo? Hindi daw kasi siya umuwi dalawang araw na."

Worry and anxiety flooded within my chest immediately. "Really? He hasn't been contacting me since oct. 26.. I can't reach either."

"Really? Nag aalala na kasi ang parents niya.. Any way.. Just enjoy your last day over there and just inform us if you'd get any news okay?"

"Okay po." Sabi ko at pinatay ang tawag.

I was worried at lutang ako hanggang sa matapos ang concert. Kahit pa ngayon na naghihintay kami ng fireworks display.

"Is everything alright?" Tanung ni Claude.

"Huh? Ah.. Yeah.. Im just worried about Tristan." Sabi ko.

Natahimik naman siya at umiwas ng tingin upon hearing the name.
I looked at him to clear things when he stood up.
"I'll just go to the bathroom for a moment."

Tumango ako pero nakatitig ako sa kanya hanggang sa makapasok siya sa CR sa gilid.
Magsisimula na ang fireworks at saktong bumalik na si Claude.
I looked at him. Ngumiti naman siya sa akin bago umupo sa tabi ko.

Napatingin kami sa langit nung nagliwanag ito.
I can't help but stare at it with astonishment.
I was smiling and was looking up when a shadow blocked my view and I felt a soft lips pressed onto mine.

When he moved away he smiled at me with all honesty.
I almost flushed.
"Wh- what are you doing with so much crowd.."

He chuckled, "it's dark.. And just let it be. Total ito na ang huling araw ng deal natin.. Bukas balik na sa normal."

Sabi niya. I frowned a bit bago napatingin sa langit. What's the difference anyway? Whether there was this deal or not.. Makakasama parin naman niya ako sa school.
Tsk.. I just can't figure out what's on his mind.

NAPAINAT ako ng kamay. Sa wakas nakabalik na kaming Manila.
Hapon na ng 30. Nag paalam agad ang dalawa pagkahatid sa akin at umuwi na.
Nakakapagod ang araw na ito pero nag aalala ako kay Tristan..

Sinubukan ko siyang tawagan pero wala parin.
I went to their house but I couldn't find him there.
Umuwi nalang akong laylay ang balikat.
Bukas ko nalang siya hahanapin ulit.

Umuwi na ako at dumiretso sa kwarto ko.
I was already lying on my bed when the maid knocked on my door.
"Sir, may tawag po para sa inyo."

Lumabas ako at pumunta sa baba.
I took over the telephone.
"Hello? Kian speaking"

"... Kian.."

Nagulat ako at tinignan ang telepono bago inilapat sa tainga ko ulit.
"Tristan? Where are you! Do you know how worried I was?!"

"Kian.. Aalis na si Trisha bukas."

"What do you mean?"

"She will go home to States para doon magpagaling. She just had her operation due to a tumor.."
Sabi niya.

"But she'll be back after right?"
Sabi ko.

"Yeah.. But I can't help but be sad.. And worried."
He spoke in a low voice.

"Why don't you go home Tristan. I'll accompany you to the airport tomorrow."

"..okay."

Kinabukasan ay kinatok ako ni Tristan ng maaga. Mabilis kaming pumunta sa airport. Halos paliparin ko na ang kotse para lang makarating doon.
Pero hindi parin namin sila inabutan.
The time of her flight she informed Tristan was an hour late.
I don't know but, she seemed to have did that on purpose kung ako ang tatanungin.. Baka mas mahirapan kasi silang maghiwalay kapag nakikita niya ang kasintahang masasaktan at maiiwan.

I accompanied Tristan for the day. Nalulungkot kasi siya. although he still have some positive side after Trisha explained why on a note she left on the guard.
Kailangan lang daw niya ng kasama.
Alam naman niyang mahal nila ang isa't isa at tanggap sila ng parents nila. He has nothing to fear.

Ice Claude's
October 31. Today was my flight. 11 dapat ang flight ko pero pinaadjust ko kay Kuya.
I want to see Kian before I leave.

I called him at tinanung kung nasaan siya.
Sabi niya nasa rooftop siya ng isang bar.
Nagmadali naman akong pumunta.
I looked at the time. It's 3 already.

Pagdating ko sa rooftop ay nakita ko siya. Kasama si Tristan.
Kian already informed me about his situation.

Tatawagin ko sana siya when I heard Tristan speak.
"I love you."

Kian sighed, "hah.. As I thought.."

He continued..
"Tristan, aren't you surprised? Having your Best friend confess to you like this?"

I was shocked and I felt my heart throb in pain.. He confessed.. And Tristan said he love Kian..
Tristan was silent. I can't see them kasi nagtago ako sa pinto.
Tristan spoke, "I was.. I wasn't expecting that.. But it's fine.."

I left already and walked away from there as fast as I can.
Even though I said I will be happy for him as long as he's happy. No matter who he was with as long as he's happy.. It's still painful huh. I guess i haven't accepted that fact whole hearted yet. It fucking hurts.