I Won't Let You Go

Showing up what's beyond the mask

Ice Claude's
  Nakatingin lang sila sa akin ganun din ako.
Nagulat nalang ako nung biglang maluha si mommy at napayuko.
I didn't know what to react kaya napakagat labi nalang ako.

"Ice. My son, I'm sorry." Pasimula ni daddy.

Napatingin ako sa kanya.
Ngayon ko lang nakita ang ganitong itsura mula sa expressionless at kadalasang galit na itsura niya.
Nangingilid ang luha sa mata niya at sobrang lungkot ng mata niyang nakatingin sa akin.

"I was a strict father. And a selfish bastard. I was so focused on my work and making you a person that I expected you to be that I didn't noticed I was hurting you already. I never knew that you were craving for the love and attention from your parents that you should have.
I'm really sorry." Sabi niya.

Lumapit si mommy sa akin at dahan dahan, halos nanginginig at nag aalangan kung hahawakan niya ang kamay ko.
She was crying.
"I'm sorry Ice. I never knew. I never knew.. I was a very bad mother. I'm sorry.." Yun lang ang nagawa niyang sabihin dahil iyak na siya ng iyak.

Hindi ko namalayan na naiiyak na ako kung hindi lang pinunasan ni daddy ang mukha ko gamit ang hinlalaki niya.
"We're not asking you to forgive us right away, son. We just want you to know we were sorry. And we know that we won't be able to make it up to you those 17 years we've made you suffer. Please, don't keep it all to yourself from this moment."

Nagtatanong ang mga mata kong nakatingin sa kanila.
Dad answered me with a slight smile on his face.
"Your dear brother Ace, came and scolded us. His words stricken us in the heart. Specially when he told us that we can throw away both your papers and act like we never had a son. And when we watched your video in his phone, we were slapped in the face. We were slapped by your words and made us wake up in the reality."

Hindi na makapagsalita si mommy sa sobrang pag iyak habang yakap ako.
Napapaluha na din si daddy.
Ngumiti ako. Oo yung totoo at sincere na ngiti.

Napatigil sina daddy at mommy habang titig na titig sa akin.
"It doesn't matter anymore. What matters is that realized that and we are like this. It's not too late to start again. I'm just so happy. I felt like all my wishes were answered.. I can't ask for more."
Sabi ko habang nakangiti parin.

They smiled and hugged me.
My mom spoke, "Caldrix and Morris are right.. You have a very wonderful smile." Sabi niya.

"You spoke with them?" Tanung ko.

"Morris entered our office the morning after your brother scolded us and told us about how wonderful person you are. When you smile, when you care for others so much, when you protect them, he said you are the most stubborn yet warm hearted person he's ever met. Caldrix barged in here a few days ago as well. He was shouting at us and told us all about you as well and left running. Haha, he's a playful yet a great person. He's a great friend as well." Paliwanag ni daddy.

"How about Kian?" Tanung ko.

"We met him in one of the largest company here. I never thought he was the heir. He was the son of the 3rd richest and successful group of companies here and in Korea. When he found out that we are your parents, he invited us for dinner. Alone son, Alone. He spoke with us Alone and told us that he'll gibe us a visit with you today to tell us a very important thing." Paliwanag niya.

Napanganga ako.
Ngumiti si mommy.
"You've found a great friend Caldrix and a greater boyfriend son. Don't let them go. Steve said he wasn't confident but I'm confident for him. He's the one son.. He was the first person I knew who talked to his lover's parents on his own accord even when he haven't spoke to you yet and ask that question. Really, I was dumbfounded when he asked us to give you to him. He's very brave and determined."