When We Were Young

When We Were Young(17)

When We Were Young(17)

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I'd rather walk alone

Then Play a Supporting Role

If I Can't Get

The Starring Role

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Alicia:

How could I let this happen?

I wasn't supposed to let this happen!

How could I have been so stupid?!

I was staring to get feelings for Alec again. It was just unacceptable. I couldn't possibly be getting feelings for this old jerk. I never thought I would feeling anything other than platonic feelings for him, but when Alec called today while I was in my room here at X's I couldn't help but smile through my misery. Old butterflies erupted in the pit of my stomach like some sixteen year old girl in love again. I didn't want that feeling. Especially with the one person who shattered my heart into microscopic pieces, making it nearly impossible to fix. Thank God for AJ who helped me see the good part in life without Alec. But at the same time... he was my first love and how many people could honestly just throw that to the side?

I shook my head. No, I couldn't do that to either of us. I cant jump on any feelings, I just couldn't. God knows if he has a girlfriend, or if he's been dating. I can only imagine the women he brings home, those cheap whores. I blinked shocked at my own thoughts. What is wrong with me?Plus he just said that he doesnt have feelings for me, so no getting hopes up on my end. But the heart wants what the heart wants.... Fuck you heart.

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Walking into my office the next day I just collapsed onto my desk chair. I was the living dead right now walking into work. I had been up most of the night just thinking. I really need to start working more at home. I need the distrsction.

"Hey Alicia I need you to look over-" Alec had walked in and stopped once he took in the sight of me. I couldn't blame him, I probably looked like hell on Earth to him. "Whoa, are you okay?"

I nodded meekly, barley able to even look at him. "Im fine. Just a rough time getting to sleep."

"Alicia you need to relax. All this shit is starting to get to you." Alec said sadly.

I just sighed. "I need to keep everyone safe!" I threw my hands in the air in frustration. "I need to make sure no one is hurt on my account!"

"But taking care of yourself is important too! Look at you! You look like you've died twice and came back to life! You need sleep." Alec's expression was full of worry. "Here, you can work tonight, take the day to take a nap. All these files aren't due until next week anyways." 

"But wait, what if someone needs me?" I asked even though I was already shaking off my blazer and searching for my sweatpants. 

Alec chuckled as he watched me kick off my heels. "You were never even here." He was walking out the door when I called him.

"Hey bunny," He froze at the nickname I used to call him when we were together, "Thanks. For everything." I said in all honesty. He's been so awesome from taking in AJ, to checking up on me, to even being a bit protective....he's been doing really well.

"No problem." He turned his head and smiled at me. "Anything for my little kitty." he winked and locked my door on his way out.

I chuckled at my old nickname and just looked at the door where he just walked out of. It still smelled of his yummy cologne. I'll have to ask him what he wears...but later. Right now I had more important things to do. Like find my pillow.

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"HANDLER!" I heard a yell that startled me awake. I jumped up from the couch and checked the time. Holy crap. It was 6 pm! I've been asleep for almost 10 hours! But damn that was an amazing nap.

"Handler get your ass here now!" I heard another yell. The deep voice boomed from outside in the hallway.

I huffed in frustration. Who the hell disturbed my beauty sleep?!

I marched out their in a tank top and sweatpants and my hair pulled into a butterfly clip not caring about what I might have looked like. I saw a tall broad shouldered man from the back in a suit outside Alec's office pounding at the door still yelling.

I tapped him lightly on the shoulder and he turned around confused and then I cleared my throat for him to look down from his giant height. He narrowed his eyes at me. "Who are you? You one of Handler's little playmates?"

I glared right back at him. "No. I'm a lawyer who hasn't slept in about 4 days because I have a kid,a baby daddy, about 15 open cases, a house I cant stay in and a loud mouthed jerk who just cant shut the hell up and wait for my freaking boss to open his damn door. So shut the fuck up, and just ring his God damn office you jolly green giant!" I barked at him.

His brown eyes went wide, and his mouth hung open a bit. He scratched his slightly stubbled chin. Then he laughed. Like really laughed. It was deep, but not overly deep. It was nice.

"Wow, how could I not recognize you?" He said suddenly smiling.

I raised a brow. "You know me?"

"Of course. How could I forget Alec's baby mama?" His voice held amusement.

I put my hands on my hips. "And who are you?"

He just grinned. "Don't you remember your ex's best friend?"

I just laughed. "Holy shit! Spidey?!"

"At your service." He smirked.

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annnnnd an update! Its been much too long guiseee! So sorry! I wont take so long next time! Love you guys ! xoxox kisses!