When We Were Young

When We Were Young(2)

When We Were Young-2

~•Alec•~

Shit. Shit. Shit. Shit. Shit!

That's all that went through my mind as I sat in my office trying to get work done. I couldn't concentrate knowing the mother of my child-that I abandoned-is sitting in an office two doors down. And she was a beautiful as ever. She had gotten so mature, so much more smarter than I imagined. But her body had my mind crazy at the thought of it. It had always been great but was wrong to say that it looked absolutely perfect?

Besides having her on my mind I had my son on it too. For the last year I have been trying to locate them because...well I wanted to be in my son's life. I know it sounds selfish but I realized that I wanted him in my life and I wish I could've been there for his first Christmas or his first birthday. I wish I could've been there when he took his first steps or when he spoke his first word.

I realized I made a huge mistake telling Alicia to leave with our son. Calling him a mistake and a burden was horrible. Seeing that picture in her office broke my heart. After I realized who she was and that the adorable kid in the picture was my son, I wanted to stab myself in the face for not being apart of his life. He was defiantly gonna break a few hearts in his years to come.

I smiled as I thought about the years to come. I could take him to baseball games, bring him here to spend the day, maybe he could even spend the weekend in my apartment upstate. But that would all be on account of one person's permission.

Alicia's.

God only knows what she's filled the boys head with up until this point. Maybe he hates me? Maybe he doesn't know anything about me?

WHY IS THIS SWARMING MY HEAD?!

I slammed my fist down onto my desk in frustration. The picture frame of my best friend Felicity fell off the desk, shattering the glass.

Felicity, who is also my assistant, walked in. I'll admit at 5'8" she was really pretty. Short fiery red hair, big brown doe eyes and porcelain skin. Not to mention curves that women would kill for.

"Whoa, do you hate me now or something?" She teased knowing I could never hate her. She picked up the ruined frame. The picture of us standing back to back at central park was taken by a stranger after many failed attempts with the self timer.

I sighed,"No. You know how I have a son right?"

Yes, she is the only one of two people who knows the other wing my fries Kevin. I met her right after Alicia left. At first I wanted to hook up with her but then I felt bad because she was sitting on the bus bench alone in the rain, so I decided to strike up conversation. Turns out she's great little sister material. After months of hanging out she found the birth certificate while helping me box all my stuff to move from my ratty old apartment. I told her everything from meeting Alicia to basically kicking her out on her ass. Boy was she pissed at me.

"Yeah, I remember. Did you find him?" She asked hopeful. Felicity always wanted to met Alec. She always said if he looked anything like me than the kid must be the cutesy thing ever.

"Kinda." I mused nervously,"I found his mom."

Her eyes widened and she grinned,"Oh my gosh! Where?!" She pulled up a seat next to me.

"She's the new lawyer. Two doors down."

She covered her mouth to suppress a laugh but her shoulders shaking gave her away.

I narrowed my eyes at her,"What's so funny City?" I used my nickname for her. She loved the city and it was a part of her name so I just started calling her that.