When We Were Young

When We Were Young(16)

DEDICATED TO:LifeGoesOn31

When Were Young(16)

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You didnt have to cut me off

Make out like we never happened

And that we were nothing

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Alec:

 "Daddy! Daddy!" I heard from my spot in the kitchen. I was cooking dinner for AJ and myself when he came bounding into my leg. 

"Whoaaa!" I exclaimed as I almost dropped the sppon I was using to stir the noodles on his head. "AJ you have to be careful! What is it?"

"On the news it says that Mami's case was solved. Does that mean she can come home?" the hopeful look in his big blue eyes tore my heart to pieces.

I gave him a sad smile. "Your mom isn't away because of her case, she's just visiting a friend. She's gonna be gone for awhile." 

The light in his eyes dimmed just a little bit but as quickly as it was gone it lit up once more. "Well thats okay cause I have you!" 

I swear I couldve burst at his words. I felt so loved, a feeling I havent had in the years I had lost Alicia, my family, hell ever since my dog got run over last year!  I put the spoon down and picked him up. I held him close to chest and kissed the top of his head. I cant believe that I ever cut him out of my life. He was the smartest, most adorable and loveable kid any parent could hope for, and for a person who feels all alone in a sea of paparazzi and lawyers he is the one person who can make me feel whole. Well except for his mother. But she was different.  She had style, class, attitude and beauty. And she was smart. Ridiculously smart. 

"Im glad I have you too buddy." I smiled and kissed his forehead.   

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After dinner I put AJ to bed and sat on the couch in my living room. I sighed and picked up my phone from the counter debating whether or not to call Alicia.  She told me not to call very often; she wanted to keep a low profile for awhile. I noticed it was about 9 o'clock and decided to hell with keeping away from her. I needed to hear her sweet voice. I had missed it these last four years and I'll be damned if I let it go again.

I blinked at my own thoughts surprised. What the hell?

I dont have feelings for Alicia anymore. At least, I shouldn't. Sure I still love her. She was my first love, my first time, and is the mother of my son, so I had some special connection left with her but I wouldnt say I still had feelings for her. Shaking my head clear of thoughts I dialed Alicia's number.  On the third ring she picked up.

"Hello?" she answered sounding like she was sniffling. 

"Have you been crying?" I immediately asked. I knew when she cried. She would get this little sniffle in her voice. 

"No." She paused for a second. "Yes." she admitted.

"What happened Alicia?" I interrogated suddenly feeling an overwhelming rush of  over-protectiveness come over me.

She sighed heavily. "C-Cole...he came to Alexios' house...I was with Jordyn alone and we fought-" "HE HIT YOU?!" I hissed angrily. Im gonna fucking kill him. "I'll kill him."

She chuckled. "Alec, he already got his ass whipped by a girl half his size. I don't think he wants another ass whooping."

I laughed at the amusement in her voice. "Only you Lacy. How hard did you put him down?" 

"I knocked him out after kicking him into a glass table." 

I actually laughed even louder at that one.

"Oh God. How upset was your friend?"

"Oh my God X nearly had an aneurysm when he walked in seeing his apartment torn up with blood on the floor." she explained.

"X?" I couldn't believe my ears. "As in Alexios?" 

"Yeah you remember him don't you?" She inquired indifferently oblivious to the hostility in my voice.   "Yeah." I said through gritted teeth. "Wasn't he your punching bag when you did MMA?"

"He wasn't my punching bag. He was my friend. Well he still is obviously." 

"Lacy I don't think that its such a good idea to be staying at another guys house." I voiced my opinion. 

"And why not?" her voice suddenly went hard.

I gulped preparing myself for an argument. "Because you have a child with someone else...and it looks wrong if you're living with some single guy in his apartment-"

"Listen to me Alec, " she began and I already knew that the argument we were having was over for me. "I am living with X and his son Jordyn. They are still grieving over the loss of Jordyn's mother. Now would you quit trying to protect me? We are not together, you are not my keeper, and I can most definitely protect my own self."

I felt like a vein pop in my head then. "Listen Alicia whether you like it or appreciate it I am and always will protect you. You are the mother of my son, my first love, and the most beautiful girl in the world to me. Now I will not lose you to some douche-bag , who by the way I never liked, because you are living with him. Do you understand me?"

It was silent for a long time. I didn't even know what to think at this point. Where is all this emotion coming from?

"Alec...do you still love me?" She asked quietly

"Of course I still love you Alicia, you were my first love. I could never not love you." 

"No, no. Are you still in love with me?"

I was quiet for a bit. Am I still in love with her? I don't think so. "Not that I am aware of at this moment." I answered finally.

"I just care about you Lacy. I would hate to lose you in my life, which means losing AJ. "

"I would never leave Alec. Now if you excuse me I need some well deserved sleep." She yawned.

I chuckled. "Alright Alicia. Goodnight."

"Goodnight Handler."  

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HAHAHA So funny story.....I got lazy and forgot about writing :/ That and my grades slipped big time. But now I'm on VACATIOOOON! Sadly I'm leaving in two weeks to paradise with no wifi or internet. So not uploading for another 3 weeks guys! Sorry :x but I promise to upload EVERYTHING! Even 'If Everyone Cared' cause I haven't TOUCHED that story in like a year :o So everything will be uploaded within the next two weeks. Maybe even multiple uploads? I dunno, but at least once everything will be updated.

Again SORRY for the wait! But at least its up! it might be total crap but its an update! So ciao!  

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