bangtan one shots

made with love ⇒ kim namjoon

#6. "you're a complete mess, but i don't care."

#12. "i honestly have no idea what i'm doing."

things were getting complicated, as much as you hate to admit it. you had a best friend, his name was kim namjoon. and you and namjoon had been friends for a long time now. and for the majority of those years, the relationship had only been a friendship, an extremely tight, and close friendship. but recently, it seems that things between you and namjoon were changing. and while they were for the better, if that was your perspective on everything, they were causing your brain to malfunction. you just didn't understand.

for the passed few days at school, namjoon has been staring at you. he thought that you hadn't noticed, but you have. you noticed from your peripheral vision. most of the times he studied you was in class or in the library. you and him were always sitting next to each other. and you would be writing something down, or reading a book, and that's when he would do it. you noticed, first namjoon would sigh, and then take a break from what he was doing. then, his gaze would eventually drift to you, where he would suddenly enter a peaceful trance. you would never feel awkward under his gaze, or uncomfortable. but, you never knew how to function. sometimes you would be too scared to look at him, and sometimes you would be too scared to speak or move. on the outside, you would look calm, and concentrated, and still. but on the inside, your heart would be beating a million beats a second, and your stomach would be twisted and knotted. in rare occasions, your face would heat up as you blushed.

you know those little hints that guys gave away when they have a crush on someone? well, they weren't that noticeable with namjoon. he was already a kind and respectful gentleman, so if he did like you, it was hard for you to notice it.

and usually, a guy will try to get closer and get to know their crush better. well, you and namjoon already know everything about each other and were already as close as two magnets stuck together.

but what was making things complicated was the fact that at some point, you and namjoon both began to notice the signs that hinted at wanting the other. for instance, namjoon and his intense study session when you were next to him. in your case, you found yourself wanting to spend more time with him.

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you approached namjoon in the hallway as he was talking to seokjin about something. you tried not to eavesdrop, but as you slowed your pace and listened closely, you picked up a few words. "seokjin, i don't know what to do anymore."

"joon, you're doing fine. i think she likes you back."

namjoon narrowed his eyes at seokjin, who in response, smiled. "trust me. i see it when she's around you."

namjoon sighed, before turning back to his locker. you froze. you could only think that they were talking about you. but of course, there was a sliver of denial in your heart, perhaps it was someone else. you felt your heart sinking, inch by inch in your chest as you drew conclusions in your head. but you were stopped when you heard your name from seokjin. "oh! y/n!"

you shook your head and met seokjin's eyes, immediately grinning and hurrying over to the duo. namjoon seemed surprised and looked at you. he smiled and closed his locker, swinging his backpack over his shoulder. "hey." he said.

you smiled, "what were you young men gossiping about?"

namjoon and seokjin shared a panicked gaze, before seokjin gave a casual shrug. "dance class. namjoon and yoongi have been working on some songs lately."

"oh, really?"

namjoon nodded shyly.

"i would love to listen to them." you looked at namjoon. "also, i was wondering if you wanted to hang out after school, perhaps at my house, or yours."