Only Ever Best Friends

✫ 18 ✫

{Grayson's POV}

I finished and that's when it hit me.
Holy shit, what did I just do?

[GRAY...]

NONONO PLEASE TELL ME I DID NOT
JUST—

[NOPE, UNDERWEAR IS OFF SO I DEFINITELY JUST DID THAT...]

OH MY GOD I ...

I JUST HAD SEX WITH ELLIE, AM I FUCKING INSANE?!

Grayson what have you done...

{Ellie's POV}

We lay on our backs, naked and breathless.

"I'm sorry," Gray whispers.

[huh?]

"El?"

"Yeah Gray?"

"What did we just do?"

[holy shit.]

I snatch my hand away.
"Something we shouldn't have," I answer, quickly pulling my panties back up and re-hooking my bra.

I get out of bed and scramble over to the heap of clothes by the door.

"Grayson?"

"Yeah?"

"We can't tell anyone about this. Our parents can't find out, and you can't tell Max or Erica or Sophie," I say, sliding my shorts back on.
I subconsciously utter:
"Or Ethan."

[WAIT.]

Fully conscious now:

"OH MY GOD, ETHAN!"

[OHMYGOD.]

"OH MY GOD," Grayson says, clapping his hands over his mouth.

"Ok this is bad," I said nervously.

[YEAH NO SHIT,
THIS IS BEYOND BAD]

"YA THINK?" he answered sitting up.

"Fuck."

[What was I thinking?!]

"Holy. Shit."

"Grayson we jus-"

"I KNOW," he snapped aggressively.

I ran into the tiny bathroom, shut the door and locked it. I slid to the floor with my head in my hands, unsure if I was about to cry, throw up, or scream bloody murder.

{Grayson's POV}

As soon as I hear my brothers name, the room begins to spin. ETHAN...HOW DID I NOT THINK OF HIM BEFORE?? This is bad. This is really really bad. 'Bad' doesn't even begin to express what this is. You can't "un-fuck" someone. I'm terrified because I don't know how I let my guard down to this extreme.
Why did I do that?! Why couldn't I stop?

"Grayson we jus-"

I can't let her finish that sentence.

"I KNOW." I yell, cutting her off.

All of a sudden Ellie runs to the bathroom slamming the door.

I feel like I did that to her... Fuck.

I decide to give her a few minutes.

One thing after the next pushes its way to the front of my mind:
How did this happen?
Why?
Was everyone right?
Three days ago I would've gagged at the thought of all this. I would've laughed at the suggestion of Ellie and I being a thing.
I would've said that it was impossible. Stupid. Gross. Never gonna happen.
So was it only a matter of time before one of us made a huge mistake and ended up changing everything? And was it really a mistake...?

I ponder all this for about two more minutes before I hear the toilet flush, reminding me that there's a girl in there. A girl to whom I owed some serious explanation.
I get up and walk over to the door.
We needed to talk.

"Ellie, I- I'm sorry... I shouldn't have snapped at you like that,"

- - -

No response.

I try the doorknob- it doesn't budge.

"El please. We need to talk about this, it's not going to just go away...you know that. Please... Please talk to me."

*click*