Magkabilang Mundo (CHAT SERIES #4)

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July 3 at 11:40 P.M.

Sunny: Good evening, laal.

Zildjane: Good evening too

Sunny: Where's the word laal?

Zildjane: Aba, hinahanap.

: I have something to tell you

Sunny: Yes, laal?

Zildjane: Is this your real account or no?

Sunny: No

Zildjane: So you mean you have a real account?

Sunny: Yeah

Zildjane: E 'di wow!

: Can I ask something?

Sunny: There are many problems that's why I'm using this.

Zildjane: What problem
is that?

Sunny: Escape reality and seeking friends.

: Oh, sure

Zildjane: What if I tell you that it's not me?

Sunny: You already said it many times.

: So, you mean you sent me fake pictures?

Zildjane: Sa wakas, nadali mo rin!

: Yeah, just what if.

Sunny: Nothing will change

Zildjane: You sure?

: Really?

Sunny: Yes

Zildjane: Aren't you get mad?

Sunny: It's an other matter

Zildjane: What do you mean, other matter?

: Another dimension of the world?

Sunny:  You know what?

Zildjane: What?

Sunny: We don't know each other when we meet

: I mean on facebook

Zildjane: Yeah

Sunny: That's why it's not a big metter if you tell a lie

: And we are just friends not lovers

Bakit parang nasaktan ako nang kaunti sa sinabi niyang ito?

Sa bagay, hanggang doon lang naman kaming dalawa. Palibhasa, tinawag lang akong laal, nag-assume na akong baka maging "lovers" kaming dalawa.

Zildjane: It's  that your perception?

: But it is still a lie

: Do you know lsm?

Sunny: I don't know

Huminga ako nang malalim pagkabasa ko sa reply niya. Segundo akong pumikit at humugot pa nang mas malalim na buntonghininga bago dumilat. Ngumiti nang mapait pagkatingala ko sa kisame.

Labag ito sa rules, pero hindi ko na kaya. Dapat ko ng klaruhin ang lahat at nang malaman ko kung gusto pa nga ba niya ako, o hindi naman talaga niya ako ginusto.

Zildjane: LSM means long sweet message, but as of I want to say it's a bittersweet. I have something to tell you and I really regret doing it. You know RP? It means a Role player. To be make it clear and short I'm a role player, portraying a character of one story. Actually the author offered me an account to help her portray the characters. And kind being and out of boredom, of course I accept her offer and that's the start that I use and portray as Zildjane Gomez. On the first place, I don't want to lie on everyone and I have this trust issues in Arabians who likes to send nudes, and I really hate it. But then I start to accept all the friend request, And here you are, you chatted me. I don't have any intention and I just want to play the role, because if I won't played it nicely, it will affect the readers. Of course I don't like to dissapoint the author and her readers, so,  I continue to play the role on the story. But being a role player is not all the attitude of the character on the story is what I show to them, because I show the real me by using this account. As the days passed and while we chatting each other... I enjoyed chatting with you because you are different to others who chatted me. You're kind and being true, hardworking and all. You even asked me to sent my photo right? And I did. As a role player I have to sent the photo that I'm portraying, if I won't, it will be mess. We continue chatting and as the days passed I'm getting to know you more, while you, you're knowing me in a wrong way, because of lies. Although I didn't fake all what I told to you. I had just fake my name, my photo and my background status.

: I'm not married. I'm not yet also working or teacher because I'm still a student. But I mean those other words that I've told you. You know what, as I chat you again or either see you name popped on the chat head, my conscience is killing me. And I have this thought, this man is too true and kind why do I have to tell lies? I really feel guilty.

: And now I have my karma, I started to like you and I don't know but I think I'm falling with you. I don't care about looks or what because I really like your attitude and for how you treat me. Unless, you are showing me the real you or you are the same with me. When you'd called me? I heard your voice, darn! You have a nice voice. I'm happy talking to you and I treasure those moments even I did lie to you. Although my attitude that I'm showing? It's all true. I care. Because you're a great friend. It's just that, today I want to end it, I don't wanna lie. And I feel pain because I'm seriously falling and I know that we can't be together. So for now, I hope you'll understand and I will understand also for what may your decision be. I understand if you will get mad to me or not talk to me. I understand what may be your decision. I told everything, and reveal this lie because to be honest, I really feel guilty and I already have feelings. I'm really really sorry. Sorry. You can tell me also what are your thoughts or reveal something. I'm sorry and if you want me gone, its alright but remember I love you, my friend, even I lied to my identification/background. But I treasured you. Sorry and thank you Sunny.

: Putek! Hindi ko bagay ang mag-drama pero ayan na nga. Seryoso ako riyan at mula sa puso ang mga binitawan kong salita kaya maniwala ka.

: Dios mio! Mag-reply kaaaa! Habaan mooOoOo!

: Napagod utak at daliri ko sa pag-type kaya naman kilos-kilos ka riyan!

: I mean, sorry and thank you.

Sunny: Thanks