Fight to survive

11. The First Kill

"Well?!? Answer me! Is she dead?!?!" I asked again

"I-I-I don't know." Dylan said staring at her still body. He kneeled down and felt her pulse.

"Oh my god! She's alive." Dylan said happily. I smiled and moved over to her body. I turned her over and studied her wound. It was deep and in her chest. Blood was still pouring out.

"To- Tom is that you?" she asked.

"Yes it's me! Are you alright?"

"No I- I feel pain. Only pain. Do you think, am I going to make it?" she asked.

"Honestly, I'm. Im not sure." I replied quite upset. Dylan came over to us.

"Jainelle I am so sorry. I didn't mean to do that. You must hate me. I hate me." Dylan said.

"It annoyed me that you weren't aware that I was nearby but I don't hate you. It was an accident. It's not like you tried to murder me. She said struggling for breath. I couldn't take it. I couldn't breathe and I thought I was about to have a panic attack. I walked over to the shed and leaned on it gasping for air. Breathe just breathe. I thought. I looked over to Jainelle she looked like she was in so much pain. Too much pain.

"I want to go. I need to go. I don't want to be in this much pain, I'm ready to go." She said with gasps of pain. She winced.

"No! What do you mean?" Taetum asked.

"Your smart Taetum, I think you can figure it out." Jainelle replied with tears rolling down her face. I started to cry, so did everyone else. We weren't ready to see Jainelle go.

"Who's gonna do it?" Courtney asked. No one responded.

"Someone Just DO IT!" Jainelle cried.

I looked away. I couldn't do it. Someone had to though. I looked over to the left and saw Jainelle

"I'm sorry, so so sorry!" I said and then stabbed her in the back. She let out a small gasp of pain.

"Thank-- y-you." She said softly and then smiled. I could almost see her life slip away. I started to cry again. I looked around and noticed everyone was crying or was fighting back the tears. I couldn't believe this, Jainelle was gone and it was my fault. If I hadn't of told Dylan where the weapons were this wouldn't have happened. It's also Dylan's fault! If he hadn't of been Reckless and careless than this wouldn't have happened either. I couldn't stand this!! Augh this pisses me off! I walked over to Dylan and Punched him. THWAP!!!

"Augh Fuck! I Didn't know you could punch that hard. Why did you do that?" He asked completely oblivious to what he had done.

"YOU KILLED HER!!! ITS ALL YOUR FAULT!!I" I screamed at him with tears rolling down my face. Everyone was looking at me shocked at my sudden outburst. I walked off and sat behind the barrels. I needed some time alone, I needed to breathe.

Taetum America walking up to me.

"Hey. How you doing?" She asked.

"She's dead. It's all my fault." I cried

"What do you mean? It's not your fault, you didn't shoot her."

"No. But I'm the one who told Dylan where the weapons were. I'm the one who stabbed her." I said.

"Only to put her out of misery." Taetum replied.

"Yea just like animals. Jainelle isn't an animal she's a human. She should've lived longer. She shouldn't of died like this."

"How bout we bury her an have a funeral." She said with a smile.

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"On this day we say goodbye to a beloved Daughter and Friend. We hope that she may find peace, passion and love in her next life. It is with great sadness that she has passed but it is a great joy that she was surrounded by the ones who loved her. Jainelle Amber Propfe Cohrs we wish you the best of luck on your travels. It is now time for you all to say goodbye." Courtney said. She was kinda the funeral person. One by one we each came up and said a speech. I was last and was completely numb. I had only cried twice last week when it had happened but now I'm numb completely and utterly numb. It was my turn for my speech. I walked over to where the burial was taking place and begun.

"I have known Jainelle for 11 years. When I had first met her we weren't good friends. We weren't even friends at all, just classmates. In year 4 2010 I became closer to J. We weren't friends yet but we were friendly to one another. One year later my closest friend had moved away to Adelaide and I had no one. Jainelle let me into her group with open arms. We immediately clicked and became friends. Soon we were best friends. I know this sounds cheesy and lame but it's true. Jainelle was like the sister I never had. If I survive this thing I don't know what I'm gonna do without her. I know everyone is expecting me too cry today, but I cant. I just can't. I'm numb so very numb. I can't open up and cry, I don't know why but I cant. Last week was a tragedy that shouldn't of happened but let me assure you I will do my best to make it up to J somehow. I hope that you are up in heaven looking down on me and smiling. Just know that I will always be your friend." I walked back to the crowd and noticed everyone was fighting back tears. I was just standing there with a blank expression on my face.

Courtney went back up by Jainelle's body. "It is now time for the burial but please know you don't have to join in."

I didn't know if I should or not but I wanted to say goodbye one last time. I made my over to her body. We didn't have a coffin but we made a raft out of twigs, reeds and leaves. We made daisy chain bracelets and headbands and then we made one long one that we placed around her body. Dylan, Taetum, Felicity and I grabbed a corner of the Raft with her body on top and placed it into the hole we dug. Courtney buried her and Tamika placed more Daisy's on top.

"Goodbye Jainelle." I said standing around her grave.

AN: So this was a hard chapter to write but I did it. I know this sounds silly but I actually got teary writing the funeral part. Anyway Please don't be a ghost reader comment, Vote, Fan and all that Lovely stuff.