Our reality //m.g.c//

Thirty one

"There are all kinds of ways for a relationship to be tested, even broken, some, irrevocably; it's the endings we're unprepared for."
~Katherine Owen

Arzaylea flew from Bali the morning after she broke up with Luke while Ava and her two friends were stuck on the island for the whole week as they didn't have enough money to buy three plane tickets on the spot and no other flight was available. So they were walking on beaches, drinking cocktails and avoiding everyone for the whole of 5 days before Ava actually had her first encounter with any of the boys.

"Ava, how are you?"

"I'm not even happy I was right about attachment so that's pretty bad."

Ashton looked away and nodded. He had forgotten just how cold Ava's green eyes could get since he hadn't seen that look since the summer they met.

"Look I just wanted to-"

"Did you know?"

"What...?"

"Did you know Michael and Luke were hooking up?"

"I knew they hooked up on Michael's birthday but after that I had no idea-"

"So you knew for nearly a month and a half and you didn't tell me?"

"I wanted Michael to be the one to...-"

"I don't really care. You not telling me and allowing me to come on this trip even though you knew is concrete enough for me not wanting the be associated with you anymore. Same goes for Calum who I know knew as well."

"But Ava-"

"Goodbye Ashton."

And Ava walked away from the curly headed drummer. This time around she was gonna make sure she didn't get attached to anyone too much. And she knew that her attachment to Ashton was pretty huge as it was so she wanted to put an end to that. After a year and a half of changing to fit a certain standard and to be a certain person for a guy she thought she loved, Ava was ready to be herself once again. And she was willing to follow her no attachment rules until she died.

Michael spent the whole of the 5 days with Crystal. Even if the girl was a initially a rebound of a sort she grew on him quickly and strongly. She was nice to talk to and really helped him thought his mental struggles.

"I think you need to see a psychologist. There is something up with you. Maybe it's this life or just what happened but you need professional help."

"I really fucked up with Ava huh?"

"And with Luke. You fucked both of them up massively. So the best thing for you to do is to talk it through with both of them and just end everything romantic with the both of them. The toxicity of these relationship has destroyed you all."

Michael nodded and looked at the older girl.

"You're a really good person Crystal."

The girl smiled and shook her head.

"I'm really not but I am trying to be. Like you saw, the night everything went down the worst side of me came out and I basically used you. I found you cute and you were so sad and drunk and I just wanted to hook up with you so I did that instead of helping. But I am trying now. I really am."

Michael smiled slightly and then noticed a certain blonde girl sitting on the rock he sat on that night.

"I need to go talk to her."

Crystal nodded and so the red haired boy walked over to his then ex-girlfriend. As soon as Ava saw the red head next to her, she moved away instinctively. Michael noticed that and made a step backwards, getting more then a foot between the two.

"I need to talk to you."

Ava scoffed without really making an eye contact with her ex.

"Well weirdly enough, I feel no urge in what so ever to ever talk to you again."

And she turned around and started walking away as Michael grabbed her arm. That made her turn around vastly and look him in the eyes raging.

"Don't touch me."

Michael immediately dropped his arm and apologized.

"Sorry but I just need to say something."

Ava didn't walk away, she didn't even move or look up and that was a good enough sign for Michael to start talking.

"I know and understand what I did was wrong and I also know there are no words in the world to ever justify this but I still wanted to say I'm sorry. I'm sorry for taking your love so for granted even though it was so hard for you to even trust me let alone love me. And I'm sorry for me being the first person you fall in love with. Sure at times I was a good boyfriend but I didn't really show you what love is all about. And I hope for you to not get back in your shell of no attachment and find someone whose sole purpose in your relationship will be to show you what love is all about."

Ava rose her look and in her green eyes, Michael saw she wasn't even a little less angry with him.

"Look I don't care what you hope for me because I don't have Hope's about you at all. I am not like Noah to wish you'd change. I honestly couldn't care less if you changed or remained the same because any associations with you is over for me. So goodbye Michael. I hope I never have to see you again."

And he didn't try stopping the girl this time. He let her walk away and almost teared up as it then finally hit him that he will never ever be able to listen to her mind and everything she always thought about. That she will never be on tour with him and he will never get to show her his favorite places all around the world. And it hit him that she will never again be his no matter what happened. So, with tears in his eyes he returned to Crystal.

"She hates me."

The girl hugged him and nodded.

"Of course she does. You were her first love and you did the worst thing you possibly could."

"Is there anything good coming in this sentence?"

Crystal shook her head.

"Not really. But I can tell you that she only reason she hates you right now is because she wants to be strong. She wants to be stronger then the pain so instead of crying she is channeling this sadness into hatred toward you. Eventually, she'll stop hating you and maybe, since she is a very smart person, she will sort of forgive you. She will never forget and you two will never be as close as friends again but a conversation will probably be possible in the long term future. You just need to give it time and change to the depths of your core if you want her to see it and if you want this band to stay together."

Michael nodded. He never wanted this to end like that but it did and all he could do, was try to insure that it never ended like that again.