Fixing a Broken Country

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Maria's Pov

"How...how long have I've been dead for?" I couldn't think, I couldn't breathe. I couldn't believe it. All this time I've been dead...Prussia didn't stop me...I hurt my babies again...my god...I'm a terrible person...

"You died around a year or so after our wedding..."

"That c-can't be....if Prussia didn't stop-"

"Prussia wasn't there Maria, you know this...stop lying to yourself..." I picked myself up and looked at him with tears in my eyes.

"I'm not!! He was there!! Big brother was-" I froze... something was trying to surface. I closed my eyes and grabbed both sides of my head. "GO AWAY!! GET OUT GET OUT GET OUT!!! IT WAS PRUSSIA!! IT WAS PRUSSIA!!!"'

"MARIA YOU KNOW IT WASN'T!! YOU KNOW THAT SPAIN WAS THERE!!" Espana...Espana....

"Maria wait don't! Maria, drop the gun!!!

"Why?! I'm a monster, might as well get rid of myself!!" I held the gun to my head. Alfred and Huma had gotten suspicious of me, I know it. That's why we went to visit Germany... To see if what they thought was right. I was able to fool them all... all but España. He was the last one I wanted to see me like this. A shell of who I was. Alfie had left for an assignment, Huma was needed back in the middle east. That's just left me alone with Spain. The kids are old enough to take care of themselves.

"Maria please put the gun down! W-we can talk this out, it doesn't have to end this way!!"

"I've tried everything, everything and it doesn't work!!! There is no other way but this!"

"No! God in Heaven please save Maria!!!"

"All I've known was a lie! A fucking lie!!"

"Honey no it's not a lie Just a dark time! Lower the gun please, you have so much to live for, you have a loving family to help you!"

"I'm a monster... I'm worthless... I'm nothing..." I kept repeating it over and over before I knew it Spain had pulled me into a tight hug. I wish he kept his distance. It would have been easier for him...

"Maria you're not worthless please Mija, listen to me..." I raised the pistol and shot myself right then and there in his arms. The sound of a gunshot echoed, as the Mexican nation's eyes quickly lost their life, as her body fell on the floor. I traumatized Spain so bad, I don't think he's responsive today. That life was mine and I threw it all away...

"S-Spain...I-I killed myself in S-Spain's arms..." I started crying more. "I-Is he o-ok?"

"He's gotten better, Prussia and France were there to keep him from doing anything drastic. At home the Mexican states all felt it: they knew it wasn't before long until they would die as well. They came down and big me goodnight. I thought it was too early, but I thought nothing of it and bid them each goodnight, unaware that it would be my last time. I had been getting ready for bed when I had received a call from Prussia. He had gone over to Spain's because you had killed yourself. I ran over to our children, trying desperately to wake them up. Unfortunately, it had been too late, they were long gone. I broke down, clinging onto the dead children's body. Marisol walked in with her eyes red, and I quickly hugged her tight. You had left me one, one of our children with me. That's all I needed for now. I called Huma to break the news to her... she didn't take it well either... After that, I got a call from France... our grandbaby was Mexican territory and... and she had died with her mother..." I cried harder. I killed my grandchild... I killed a baby....

"N-No... please don't tell... I'm a monster... mi nieta...mis niños..." I feel to my knees, clinging to myself. I-I should be hell...I don't deserve anyone...