My dumb self

paths pt. 1

i decided to save the chapter about my home life, and post it a different time. rn im in a good mood, so im going to be talking about my boy bc he makes me very happy.

im gonna tell the whole story about how we met, there's bad parts in it but ya'll need to know the whole thing in order to get why things happened the way it did. this whole story takes place during a couple years time.

its the beginning of 8th grade. i started taking taekwondo classes bc i was a badass bitch who wanted to learn how to fight. i made friends quickly, i was the only girl in my grade that was in that class. a lot of boys started to like me and flirted since i was the oldest girl and the rest were basically kids in 7th grade. they would hold open doors for me, tell me they liked my hair, all that flirty stuff. during the time i haven't dated for a good 2 years. i was looking for someone to just have fun with bc relationships r like boring and serious for a 13 year old. so i played them like a fiddle, getting their snapchats and "flirting" back to them bc it was like a game to me. it was fun haha. they were like my guy friends but i wasn't close to them. this one boy in my class stood out to me tho. he's ugly, but i looked past his appearance and into his personality. let's call him dr pepper. dr pepper had a very smooth way of talking. like he read and memorized a book about it. he always was looking at me, when i was looking away i could feel his glance.

he had ginger curly hair. a lot of acne, he was taller than me. green eyes. and pale skin. he had kind of veiny hands and light skin with veins looked pretty to me. i really liked how his hands looked for some reason. ANYWAYS.

earlier in the year this girl in my language arts class came up to me and my group of friends and kind of stuck with us, for like a day. lets name her pepsi. she was short and always wore her long hair in a ponytail. except for picture day, on the day i met her. she looked like a nerd, and she was one too. she was into all that stuff. anime, undertale, furries, u name it. i always saw her drawing furries, i thought nothing of it bc if people r happy with what they like then theres no problem in that :). she was nice, but back then i didn't really talk to her. she probably felt excluded from the group bc of that and decided to find other friends.

in my friend groups, im like the mother. i give advice to them whenever they are stuck with something. like one time my "child" wanted to try weed. i told her to be careful with who and where she gets it from, and that she can use my pen to try it out and see if she likes it or not. if they wanted to do something they always asked me stuff about it first bc i spend days just researching anything. i have a lot of random knowledge thanks to youtube.

i feel bad that i kind of left her out of the group. something just didnt seem right with her despite all of the nice things. she didnt seem like the kind of person i would become good friends with. the group consisted of me and 3 other girls; i was best friends with all of them so it would've been weird having 5 friends in a group.

after the first few months of school sped by, dr pepper had a girlfriend. it was pepsi. i didnt care bc i didnt like him. whenever i saw him around school i never really saw them together. they seemed like a weird couple.

during december i found his instagram and followed him. he immediately followed me back and said "hey" i was like "hi?" and then he started texting me a lot and we were talking. after a few weeks he started smooth talking me and asked me if i wanted to go to the movies with him. i really didn't like him like that and i never really had to make up excuses bc my parents were strict anyways. he understood, but kept pursuing me. not in a sexual way, but like in movies where a guy sees a pretty girl and keeps trying to get her to like him. he started showing ways in school how he liked me. we had taekwondo and math class together. he would sit by me and talk like we were best friends. it eventually worked. we became best friends.

he started getting more and more flirty. pepsi started noticing how much time i spend with him, and she started giving me nasty looks. i shrugged it off bc little did she know i was in the process of stealing her man. he had to switch out of the taekwondo class and make it at a different time of the day. on my schedule it was my first class in the morning. he had art, and he would walk his girlfriend to class. he texted me saying he would come to my taekwondo class and ditch art. pepsi asked him why he was acting weird saying he had to go to his class early instead of walking her. he lied saying he had to talk to a teacher before class about his grades.

pepper ran to my class with a big smile on his face. i was happy he came, we only had 1 class every other day where we could see each other. this cycle continued where he would skip his class and come to mine. he told me he watched me when i did push ups.. it was kind of weird but at the time i saw nothing wrong with that and laughed about it.

the school year was almost over. thru out the months i observed pepsi and she seemed to grow more and more sad. she would write paragraph after paragraph on papers, crumble them up and throw them away when we were watching a class movie. i laughed and giggled with my friends when she was probably going thru a breakdown. i thought it was ok to take her man, after all: he flirted with me first. he was a fuck boy, but i was blind to that.

in math, we were at the computers doing a test and he was sitting next to me. i was about half way thru it when he placed his hand on my thigh for a good 5 mins. i never felt that before. a boy putting his hand on me like that, i liked it. after class we acted like nothing happened lol.

it was summer, and he started to fall in love with me. pepsi and him were still in a relationship and its been about 5 months. she was moving away to indiana, so pepper felt no reason to date her anymore. he broke up with her on their 5 month anniversary. she immediately started texting me with angry things and bogus stuff. i told him and he told her to leave me alone. she got furious and sad. i dont blame her. poor girl.

he waited some time. the beginning of 9th grade was starting and he said he would kiss me the next time he saw me. we didnt kiss, we havent seen each other in months so i slowly started warming up to him again. on the first friday of the school year, he was my first kiss. it was a quick one bc my bus got called and i had to go. his lips were sandy for some reason.

he asked me out on that same day and i was crying. my parents got into another fight and he knew i was sad at the moment but asked me anyways. i accepted being his girlfriend the next day.

the next part is a complete turn around.

during the first couple weeks everything was going great. he texted back fast, told me he loved me and that i was beautiful everyday. sent me paragraphs.

after that he started asking me for pics. i said no bc i didnt want to. he kept asking and pleading and i still said no. i would send like cleavage to make him happy or stupid stuff but i wouldnt send explicit things. he always wanted more. more more more. lower the camera a little bit. u should take off that shirt. take off your bra. i will be fully happy when you do.