My dumb self

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hi. its fucking 3:46 am and i have a huge ass headache and a stupid cold that my mom gave me. i cant fall asleep bc im lying awake thinking of all the possible things that will happen when school starts.

i just want to be at my boyfriends house laying with him and talking about dumb stuff and kiss his cute face a million times. what the fuck.

im so grouchy rn i hate Life die.

oh my GOD i feel the build up of stuff inside my head in my left jaw AND ITS FUCKING KILLING ME STOP.

omg im horny and grouchy what the fuck..

i want my man right THIS INSTANT.

fuck sorry.

i cant wait til im grown up and me and him have a house so i can be like Hi whenever i want and we can cuddle and watch movies and smoke weed and have deep talks and FUCK i miss him sorry.

sorry.

sorry.

omg why im am typnug wranomf works what the fuck i mean to say words not worksz.

what the hell is wrong with me goo dnight

wait fuck this im getting up

im going to stay up until i go to the Gym i literally havent goetten any sleep this entire night and school starts tomorrow Jesus Christ.

im making mandarin orange spice tea and eating some rice cakes and im going to read hayrry potter bye hoe

sorry for calling u a hoe precious being u did not deserve that im just stupid rn i need to be cured from this stupid cold my mom bestowed upon me and Oh my God the tea is making.

mm smells like deathew it smlles like rotten chocolate candy canes fuck ok im going to try it..

but first i have to wait.

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i feel like i have  aeating problem i never crave anything anymore.

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i havent eaten in forever and i get sixk whenever i eat something small..

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WAITING TIME OVER OK

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like i had one tiny piece of cookie cake and was like im full LIKE HOW WOULD ANMORMAL PERSON GET FULL FROM THAT but i did so that's unusual

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HPLY FUCKING SHIT I JUST HEARD THE LOUDEST NOISE EVER IN MY BACKYARD IT SOUNDED LIKE THE BACK DOOR SLAMMING SHUT WHAT THE FUCK.. IM SLEEPING IN MY PARENTS ROOM FUCK THIS SHIT

the tea is actually quite divine

BUT WHAT THE FUCK WAS THAT NOISE I HATE HEARING THAT NOW IM STAYING UP AND NEVER SLEEPING AGAIN JOSE HELP PLZ :(((

i like having at least i little source of light in my room bc i hate being in the dark and hearing stuff so i have a light up sign with the words GARBAGE GANG on it and it looks lowkey beautiful

i literally feel safer anywhere besides my own home, do u guys relate? oh ok just me kk

BUT ANYWAYS WHAT WAS THAT I HATE THAT

time to watch shane dawson conspiracies about the end of thw world jk thats scary

my head is still killing me

i woke up my goddess of a mother and WHAT THE FUCK MY DOOR IS OPENING BY ITSELFLFLFLLFLFLFLLLFLFLFKFL

FUCK MY EYES R WATERING I HATE MY HOUSE

anyways i asked if she had anything for my symptoms and she was like ur gonna be dead at school and i was like ik hehe thanks mother

but i ended up not taking it bc its for sleeping too and im going to stay up so fuck sleep.

this tea is actually really good mm

its 4:24 am bye teh way AND OMG I JUST SNEEZED BUT MADE IT QUIET AND IT SOUNDED LIKE A DYING MINECRAFT RABBIT AWW IT SOUNDED SO CUTE ok anyways off track again

i have so much stupid kids stuff on my shelves my room is so childish. i have minecraft

WHEN I WAS FUCKING TYPING THAT I HEARD A WAY BIGGER SOYND RIGHT NEXT TO MY WINDWO IM NOT FUCKING PLAYING

ok i told my mom and she offered to switch rooms and now im in her bed and shes in my bed shes so nice instead she couldve been like Fuck off ugly Sleep

4:43 am
fuck it im going to sleep this is pointless and only gibing me eye bags and this bed is comfy good night children

thanks for being with me during my crackhead near death experience bruhvr haha good night m