My dumb self

hobbies

hey

i woke up with a migraine and my mom decided to cancel my plans i had with my boyfriend today bc she didnt get enough sleep. my dad hurt his back so he didnt go to work and i feel like throwing up bc im sick for some reason like wtf how did i deserve any of this to happen. sometimes i wonder why my boyfriend still puts up with my dysfunctional self and family. (8.5.19)

anyways,

my hobbies.

i like doing a lot of things but i normally choose to be lazy on my phone bc im addicted to being on it and scrolling thru pointless stuff. i like to draw, im not good at it but theres a lot of pretty things i would like to be able to get good at. examples:

like simple cute stuff. i have a very grunge style when it comes to clothes. when it comes to everything else, i like soft things. its weird.

i would describe myself as a deep down wholesome person. i smoke sometimes and i like doing things that im not supposed to but that doesnt make me try to be all cool and self absorbed or like stupid stuff. im like that harmless happy crackhead on the side of the street that tells people to have a blessed day. im messed up all over inside but im still a good person. i like being alive, im not suicidal anymore. and i dont do edgy things that would make me seem different and cool from other people's perspective. i only smoke, but i dont shove it in everyone's face posting about it every day. i almost tried lsd and edibles. i heard lsd fucks u up. i was like ooh i want to try. not fucks u up in a bad way but really makes u see shit differently, in a good way? idk. me and paiton tried getting the lsd and edibles from an old friend that went to our school once. just stupid teenager stuff. he said how when he was giving our money to the dealer he got caught by cops and is going to court. so maybe it was god's way of preventing us from using it? maybe we didnt know what we were getting ourselves into. anyways,