My dumb self

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hey baby, i know u just said ur going to sleep but thats not gonna stop me from writing paragraphs about how i love you. just know that even when we dont talk much during the day im still missing u a lotttt..

i went on my ps4 seeing if u were online and when i saw u werent i thought u were talking to ur friends u saw today, so i played some of the story mode and i was thinking of u the whole time lol i swear u never leave my mind.

after that i got tired and i was about to facetime u before i went to sleep and then u sent a snap saying ur tired so then i just facetimed u right before u went to sleep hehe. but anyways..

i know you doubt sometimes and im glad that ur doubting a lot less than before. we just gotta work on eachother's worries and insecurities and over time it will eventually go away. like when i was insecure about certain things and u made me feel a lot better by saying that im perfect to you just the way i am.
the thing is, i feel the same way about you.

no matter what negative thing u think about urself i will always disagree with it. i fell deep in love with the real you, u do what ur heart wants and i will always support you.

dont change for nobody and you focus on urself and not other boys u think i would like more. focus on us, on urself, and on our love. i meant it when i said yes to becoming ur girlfriend, to me thats a long term commitment until the very end.

and commitment is a very important thing to me. its about staying with the person u chose to stay with no matter what. were gonna be grown and talk things out when it gets bumpy, not just break up. a relationship takes patience too, if someone doesnt have patience when theyre dating someone then they might as well not do it. bc if they get in a argument and have no patience theyd be like fuck it this aint working out. if they do have patience then the relationship will last forever.

another thing, im in love with you. i dont put up with people's shit unless i really, really, REALLY care about them. i want u in my life and i cant imagine what it would be like if u just vanished from it. when we had our first argument i was laying there thinking about whether u were gonna leave me or not. i known since u promised me that ur never gonna leave me, but its sometimes hard to grasp having someone that will stay with me for so long and not change feelings. dont u feel it too? like when i promised u im never gonna leave u but u still doubt? it just means we really love eachother and were scared of something ever changing that big promise. i think different situations happened to us to make us have those doubts.

we were both broken before and the longer weve stayed together the more weve healed.

its a great thing that were together bc we both needed that certain kind of love. only broken people can love other broken people in the most understanding way. i understand and accept that ur clingy, and over protective, and have doubts. u understand that im emotional, i overthink, and i doubt. and even tho i have those annoying traits, u still accept me how i am and i do the same for you.

its hard in this life to be deeply understood by someone. how u think, ur humor, ur sadness, how you love, ur outlook on life etc, and i dont want you to feel like how i did when i was younger. i want u to feel all the good things that i missed out on. i want to give you attention, the love, caring, and all the affection you deserve.

u really r an amazing person jose. u give me all those things and more without even trying. i love you more than words can begin to describe. i look past ur flaws and see right into you. thru those dark brown eyes of urs i can see my future. its a long ways away, but with u by my side it will feel like this 👏🏼 quick. u gotta make the best of life bc u only got one shot to live it the way u wanted to. im gonna spend mine with u, and i wouldnt want it any other way.

i love you so much jose
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July 31st, 2019, 2:20 AM

sender: sierra smith

recipient: jose mendoza