bitch // billie eilish

fifteen

I was in the bathroom for a good fifteen minutes. Every time i wanted to leave, thinking my stomach was empty, more shit would just come up. I kept thinking about Billie and her family and that made me worry more, causing me to throw up again.

Several people were knocking on the door but i just stayed quiet, scared that if i spoke that my stomach would empty again. They just stopped knocking after a while.

I slowly rose to my feet with an arm around my stomach and my other on the wall, supporting my weight and keeping myself from falling. If Billie just would've stayed on tour then she'd be fine.

I managed to get myself out of the bathroom and slipped away from it. It was going to stink of vomit and i didn't want anyone to see me coming out of it. I sat back down at my spot and checked my phone, still no messages.

I felt like crying again until i saw a head of bright green hair enter the Starbucks. She rushed over to me and sat down, wrapping an arm around my shoulders and pulling me into her side. I leaned my head on her shoulder and hid my face in her neck.

I heard Claudia's voice speak from in front of me.

"I heard. I googled it up because i was just so worried. The fucking bastard."

I didn't move from Gemma's body but i could hear the spite in Claudia's voice when she spoke.

"The driver was dru-"

"I know." I cut her off, pulling my face away from Gemma's neck so i could look at Claudia. "A fan was in and i asked her. She was sweet. Did Finn text you? Billie? Even anybody? I threw up because i was too worried. You can have this if you want."

I pushed my nearly full cup of coffee towards Gemma and buried my face back in her neck again. She wrapped her other arm around me too so i was completely enveloped in her arms. I felt her lips in my hair as she squeezed my body gently.

"They'll all be okay. I promise you, alright? Wanna go for a drive or do you wanna go back home?" Gemma rested her cheek on my head and i sighed softly. It would be nice to get out and about but i'd love to go and get pyjamas on and sleep.

"Uhm, take me to the beach? I like the sound of the ocean." I murmured, glancing across at Claudia who just smirked.

"I could play ocean sounds on my phone if you want." She said and i shot her a glare with the one eye that was visible from my place in Gemma's neck.

"Dick." I laughed slightly before i pulled away to give Gemma her space.

"C'mon. Let's go to the beach." Gemma took my hand in hers and we walked side by side out of the building, leaving Claudia looking like the third wheel. The sun was out and the ground that was once wet was mostly dry, apart from the odd wet spot on the ground. Hopefully the sand was dry.

I hopped into the back of my car as Claudia offered to drive but she wouldn't let me say no as an answer. Gemma got in the back with me with my starbucks drink in her hand. She sipped on it and then placed it in the cup holder in front of her.

She opened up her arms and i didn't take down the offer of being in her comfortable hold. Her hand went to my head and i felt her stroke my hair soothingly. I felt bad. Gemma was bound to feel horrible too, yet she was the one that was comforting me. And Claudia too. Her and Finneas were just as close as me and Billie, but we were without the romance. Well.

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"Mia, babe, wake up."

Claudia's voice sounded in my ear.

"Bro, get away! That was too loud, you'll put her in a bad mood when she wakes up!" Gemma scolded.

"You're the one that's shouting! Should i slap her awake?"

"The fuck? No!" Gemma's arms tightened around me and i felt lips against my forehead. They peppered down along my cheek and my chin, before making their way back up to my head.

I opened my eyes and Gemma immediately stopped, her cheeks flushed. She's embarrassed when i catch her doing it but she isn't when Claudia is here. Hm.

"Hi." Gemma smiled down at me and i smiled back up at her, rubbing my eyes.

"We're at the beach now but if you're tired we can head back." Claudia said to me. I looked up at her.

"No, i want to stay here for a while. If you guys wanna go if you get bored, i'll be fine." I leaned away from Gemma but held onto her hand and opened my door to get out.

Claudia scoffed in front of me and shook her head, getting out herself.

"Shut up, Mia. We aren't leaving you." She told me once all three of us were out.

Soon enough, we were all walking along the sand. Although, Claudia was being a third wheel again as Gemma's hand was in mine and we were glued side by side. I didn't know what to think of it. It could be a friendly action but it could also mean something else.

I really liked Gemma, even though i've only met her last night. There was definitely an attraction to her.

"Look at the puppy!" Gemma squealed, pointing in front of us to a little black puppy running up and down the sand.

"He's ador-"

Claudia gasped suddenly and we all stopped. I turned to look at her and her phone was in her hand. The ringtone she had for Finneas was going off loudly and her hands shook as she answered it, putting it on loud speaker.

"Hello? Claudia? Finneas requested to talk to you."

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