𝐫𝐞𝐛𝐨𝐮𝐧𝐝, shawn mendes

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aurora versini
08/05/18
1:57pm
JFK airport, usa

A ten minute drive. That's all I have to get through, and then once we get back to the apartment I can tell him everything.

I wait in the car, not wanting to expose the relationship we weren't going to have for much longer. I watch the minutes pass by, counting down until I can finally be free of him for good.

He walks through the double doors, expensive sunglasses adorning his face. Before, even a week ago I felt something when I saw him, just a little tug at my heart, for our history. But now I feel nothing, and I'm proud to say it.

He spots the car instantly, walking over and opening the door. He slams it shut once he's in, fastening his seatbelt angrily. "Drive."

"No." I respond, standing my ground for once in our relationship. "Get out of the fucking car, and try that again."

"Not now, Aurora." He snaps. "Drive."

"Don't you fucking dare talk to me like that, you hear me?" I shout, all the anger I'd buried deep within me spilling out. "I'm sick of you thinking you can treat me like I'm your fucking slave, Kal. I'm not a fucking robot, designed to do your bidding. I'm a person, and I deserve better than this."

He doesn't respond, his eyes burning into the windshield.

"Drive." I mimic, laughing at his incapacity to be a decent boyfriend for two seconds. All of my plans to keep calm go out of the window with that one word. "Who the fuck do you think you are?"

"What the fuck has gotten into you?" He spits, turning to look at me. "What happened to my Rory?"

His words make me feel sick. I turn to him, pure fury burning into my cheeks. "I realised that I deserve better than you and your manipulation and your mind games. I deserve a man, and not a boy."

"And where the fuck are you gonna find that?" He yells, "Because you won't find anyone better than me, I'm telling you now."

"I already did, Kal. And I left him for you, because I let you get inside my head." I pause, watching as realisation crosses his face. "But not anymore, Kal. You're out. I'm done."

"No you're not. You'll come back once you realise I'm the best you'll ever have."

"In what area, Kal? Because certainly not in bed, since you can't make me feel a fraction of the things he does. And definitely not in the kitchen, considering you tell me to make the pancakes he'd make me automatically. And absolutely not in terms of affection, because I loved him more in the two months I was with him than three years with you." I shout, the words spilling out of my mouth with no control. I shut up after that last line, shocked at a confession I wasn't even aware of.

"What the fuck did you just say to me?" He sputters.

"I love him." I whisper, realising it's true. "I love him. Oh my god, I love him."

"No you don't, Aurora. Don't be so stupid."

"What do you know about love, Kal?" I turn to him, calmer now I've realised my feelings. "Because I don't think you're capable of it. Not with me, definitely. You don't love me, you just need me to bolster your own opinion of yourself."