𝐫𝐞𝐛𝐨𝐮𝐧𝐝, shawn mendes

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shawn mendes
16/03/18
10:08pm
los angeles, usa

"We're free, fallin' all in..." I sing into the microphone, nervously anticipating the reactions of my team behind the glass. This song is by far the most emotional, 'lovey-dovey' song I've written in a long time, if not ever. It was safe to say I'd surprised my songwriting team when I came back from Italy with a song like this.

"We might be making this Italy trip a monthly thing." Andrew had joked, the first time I played it for him. "I'm kidding, obviously. But I can't say that it's not a beautiful song."

Now, I was finally recording it. I'd put my heart and soul into producing it with the help of some of my songwriters over the past couple of days, with Aurora in mind. It seemed that after I'd realised how much I truly do love her, everything I did was for her, even if not directly. The only way I can describe it, is that I'm only living for the next time I see her, in a few days.

"I think that's it!" Andrew claps his hands together proudly as I emerge from the booth. "Nothing more that can be done except put it on the album."

"Only three more to go." I sigh.

"You think you can do it by the start of May?" Brian asks, clapping a hand on my back.

"If Aurora either breaks my heart or confesses her love for me, then yes." I chuckle wryly.

"Let's hope it's the latter, eh?" Andrew adds. "Speaking of the beginning of May, are you going to the Met Gala with her?"

"Uh, no. I don't think that's a good idea." I stammer. "Unless you want me to?"

"Well, not necessarily." Andrew smiles guiltily. "You're planning on walking on your own, right?"

"I was gonna..." I reply hesitantly.

"What if you didn't? What if you walked with Hailey?" I let out an involuntary snort at the proposition.

"Ha, definitely. Why didn't I think of that?" I say sarcastically, under the impression that he's joking. When he does his guilty laugh, it's clear that he's not. "What?"

"Well, her manager called this afternoon. He wants to know if you were willing to start up the relationship again?" He doesn't say relationship in inverted commas, which makes me chuckle to myself at the thought.

"And you said no, right?"

"Uh, not exactly." He scratches his neck guiltily.

"You said yes?!" I practically yell, aghast.

"I said I'd talk to you about it."

"Right, well, there you go. No." I shake my head. "Why did you even have to ask?"

"I don't know, but can you at least consider it?" He presses. "Even if it's just for publicity, I think it would be really good for your image if you were seen with her at this event. Please?"

"No, Andrew." I argue, furious at the idea. "I have Aurora now."

"But it's not like she's your girlfriend, or that she ever will be, knowing your track record." He hits back, face contorting into shocked guilt once he realises the words he just said. I'm too blinded by his previous statement to notice.