Joe💙:I woke up around 4:30 am. I rolled over to hug Dianne when I realised she wasn't there. I assumed she had just gone to get a drink or something and as my parents weren't home I went straight downstairs. I turned the corner to see a half empty bottle of wine on the side and my heart dropped. No Dianne she wouldn't not with her mum and AJ and all whats she's been through she wouldn't risk it. My head was spinning. I ran back upstairs into AJ's room to check and there was AJ fast asleep yet no sign of Di anywhere. I only had one more place to look. The bathroom. I went towards the door, locked of course. Although I remembered my parents showing me how to unlock it from both sides. I managed to pick the lock. And there she was lying on the ground. Blood marks covering her arms. DIANNE! I checked her breathing and then tried to wake her up. She murmured but fell back into unconsciousness. I grab the phone and call 999. Why would Dianne do this! I thought she was finally happy again. I thought she was better. I ran downstairs and let the ambulance in. A small tear fell from my eye as I felt a sense of dejavú. I ran and woke AJ up as we climbed in the back of the ambulance following Dianne.
AJ🐙:"joey. What's happened to di"
Joe💙:"well monkey do you remember when di wouldn't wake up and you called me"
AJ🐙:"yep, I didn't like that"
Joe💙:"I know no one did. But something like that's happened again. But last time Di got through it and she was okay. So we have to have hope"
AJ🐙:"okay. We have to hope"
Joe💙:"that's it" I felt AJ snuggle into me. He was like my little brother. Well more or less son now me and Di were practically his parents. I loved him like a son. My mum and dad did bits to help out but they were always away so that didn't help. We got to the hospital and went back to the family room, the one we had spent so long in before.
Doctor👩⚕️:"joe sugg"
Joe💙:"yes that's me"
Doctor👩⚕️:"are we able to speak in private"
Joe💙:"yes as long as I can still keep an eye on AJ"
Doctor👩⚕️:"that should be fine, now I have to ask but is there any reason you can think of that would have caused Dianne to well attempt suicide"
Joe💙:I fought back the tears at every breath "no, she had my family supporting her. She has AJ who she adores. I just... i.... i don't know" with that I broke tears streaming from my face.
Doctor👩⚕️:"Im sorry, if it helps Dianne has regained consciousness and was asking for you, we need to get her seen by a psychiatrist however I'm sure 5 minutes won't hurt."
Joe💙:"okay thank you. Is there anyone who could watch AJ"
Doctor👩⚕️:"yes, I'm happy for you to take him down to the hospital crèche before. I'll be up here waiting"
Joe💙:"okay" I wanted to see Dianne so badly, just to let her know I was there for her. And she didn't need to go this. I ran down the stairs and dropped AJ off. He didn't seem to phased as he had toys to play with and there was a lot of other children his age. I went back upstairs my heart racing.
Doctor👩⚕️:"ready"
Joe💙:"ready as I'll ever be" I walked in and Dianne gave me a small smile, she was so weak.
Dianne❤️:I regretted what I did, I should have known I had joe I should of told him. I saw him standing at the door and wanted to scream to him. He slowly walked through and hugged me. "I'm so sorry"
Joe💙:"baby, it's okay. I'm just glad your safe. Can I ask a question. It might be to soon but why?"
Dianne❤️:"it's okay, you deserve to know" my voice was shaky I handed joe my phone with the messages open
Joe💙:I grabbed Dianne's hand. I could kill Mikey. The way he made her feel was unacceptable. Dianne was reviewed by a psychiatrist and was free to go home as they believed she was stable enough. She had weekly counselling sessions in place. I rang Zoe who came and picked us up. We came home and her and Zoe went and had a chat about everything.
Zoe🎃:"hey,talk to me"
Dianne❤️:I broke down I front of Zoe, me and her had become extremely Close since I had been living here. She was honestly my best friend. "Im sorry zo, I never meant for joe to find me I never meant for any of this to happen" tears streamed from my eyes.
Zoe🎃:"hey it's okay, joe showed me the messages he shouldn't have made you feel like that. But di you are so strong, you've practically raised that little boy. You can get through this"
Dianne❤️:"it doesn't feel like that"
Zoe🎃:"I know Di, look if this helps" I slowly lifted up my sleeve to show Dianne my scars. Hardly anyone had seen these only my therapist and my mum. "I've done it. I got through it. I'm not going to lie to you it's not an easy ride but it takes time."
Dianne❤️:i wrapped my arms round Zoe. Tears streaming from both our faces. "Thank you. I love you"
Zoe🎃:"I love you to di. Right. If this ever happens again you come straight into this room okay"
Dianne❤️:"okay"{A/N: sorry if this ending feels rushed I didn't know how to end it also just for clarity Dianne wasn't planning to attempt suicide, she was self harming and had just passed out. If ANYONE is feeling like this out there I am always around to chat. If not here are some helpline numbers- UK: 116 123
https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/List_of_suicide_crisis_lines
I didn't want to miss out a country so here is all of them 💗 I LOVE YOU ALL.
But I think I have an idea for the sequel so that's coming soon!}
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Abandoned - a Joanne fanfic.
FanficDianne has lived in England since she was 5, ever since her life went downhill. After her dad left 3 years ago. Will she ever trust again?