Ocean's Deep

Part 9

Don't SPECULATE anything on this chapter.

Alec woke up feeling throbbing in his head, last night was one of the worst night he had, the look on his mother's face and the disappointment by his father's words triggered him. He felt vulnerable, useless, feeling his existence somehow is a burden for his family. As he lay his head on his pillow he looked out to his window, the birds are chirping on the tree outside, the sky is blue, it's just another beautiful day.

Although he couldn't help but feeling irritant that somehow his life is ending, the world didn't. He was angry too that people will not stop living after he's gone, his family won't bother to mourn his death after what he did last night. He thought.

He sat up looking around his own room, noticing it might need some cleaning later, he sighed. The house is quiet, too quiet for his liking. There's no sound of his mother waking him up like usual, preparing his breakfast like she always did and his siblings bickering over who should drove today.

He looked at the watch on the nightstand, it shown almost ten in the morning, he slept in. He peeled his blanket off from his body and get out from the bed. It took him minutes to decide what he should say if he met his mother later, or anyone and explained his behavior. He could feel his legs are better minus the bruises form but he's definitely not limping anymore.

He pulled the door knob and walked out from his room, his feet paddled on the hard wood floor as he head himself towards the kitchen. No one, literally no one is there. He wanted to call out for his mother but he kept his mouth shut and decided to look around for some more.

He reached the living room and as he assumed, no one is there, he walked towards the staircase and looked up as he gripped the banister, hoping someone is here and he's not home alone. He took the steps slowly and climbed to the top, he was breathless when he reached there so he stopped and leaned for a while.

He walked towards his siblings room first and pushed the door one by one and found it empty. He sighed looking around Jace's room that clutters with his shirt and boxers all over the floor. He cringed at the messiness he had, glad that he didn't share a room with him.

He stood in front of his parents room dwelling with his decision whether or not to knock or called. He chose knocking first and when he waited for few seconds for an answers, he was disappointed by the silenced. When he opened the door and find it empty he could feel his heart broke into pieces.

Why would he bothered thinking whether or not his family is going to be miserable with his death if they already start living their own lives as they do now. Alec could feel tears fell on his cheek as he swallowed his throat dryly. He closed back the door and headed back to his room. He sat in silenced for a while before decided to take a shower and head out.

He didn't have his car so he decided to walk, he let his legs wander wherever it likes and with his mind buzzing with lots of thoughts, his legs kept going and the next thing he know he was at the park.

The weather isn't cold but it isn't hot either, his black shirt and black leggings hugs his body perfectly with his tall build frame. He saw people jogged around with their dogs, couples walking hand in hand and some vendor were selling food that Alec finds it intriguing but chose to keep his appetite for later.

He walked further into the park and walked on the trail that leads to the small stream inside the park. He used to come here after his run couple of years ago before everything happened. He remembered it well, the call, the yelling he got from his mother for sneaking out and the crash after.