Ocean's Deep

Part 30

"Don't be ridiculous." Magnus clicked his tongue before he sat with his leg crossed next to Alec. He stares at Alec's face before he tell him again. "You're not dying, we're gonna get out from island. I'm sure, any day now." Magnus reassured him again and Alec sighed.

Alec wanted to get up but the pain shooting his chest making him winced as he raised his body slowly holding his chest with his right hand. He slowly lifted up his shirt and Magnus freaked. "What the hell are you doing?" He asked curious holding out his palm blocking the view. "You want the whole truth and now I'm gonna tell you everything." He said and Magnus eyed him contently waiting for his words lowering his palm slowly.

He lifted his shirt up showing Magnus his scars and he could see Magnus eyes widen in horror. "What the fuck?" He mutters under his breath before he raised to his knees closing their gap but not too close to each other. Alec couldn't hold his tears when it fell on his cheek. Magnus raised his hand wanted to trace his fingers along Alec's abdomen but he retorted before he tried to touch it again. His scars is as clear as if it was an oil painting on white canvas. Alec shudders when Magnus' finger finally run through his cold torso.

"What happened?" He asked and Alec lowered his shirt back down. "I had a car accident two years ago with my mum. I was impaled with a wood and it torn my heart - literally. Ever since then my heart is just- damaged." He started and Magnus wait further for his words.

"I was on a list so the transplant team can arranged for a new heart. It's been over a year since we waited. Chances are getting slimmer by day and eventually my heart don't have enough time left to wait. That is why we had this vacation. To enjoy our moments for one last time, as family." Alec continued letting his tears dropped on his cheek.

When Alec looked to his front, Magnus is clutching his hair in his fist with his elbow rested on his knee. He looked down at Alec's chest still didn't turned his gaze away. "Say something." Alec begs and he heard him exhaled an exasperating breath. But before he could say anything, Magnus shot up and stood harshly before he paced around back and forth in front of him.

"Magnus-" Alec began but he couldn't finished as he was interrupted.

"You are such a selfish person Alexander." He said and Alec was caught by surprised when he heard him say so. He raised his body up although it's hurting him. "I never meant things would be this way." He said honestly and Magnus still paced around.

"WHY haven't you tell me anything?! WHY Alexander?! Have you had any idea what positioned am I in right now?!! I was so scared every single time you had y-your fainting, your weakness, your pain! How do you expect me sitting down calmly on this island thinking every seconds that you are here, you could have died! How stupid can you be Alec for doing this to me, to yourself! You could have told me before I would fucking get you drunk and get us stranded on this island!!"

Alec stood there in silenced, tears rolling on his cheek but he ignored them letting Magnus had his wrath. "You don't understand." He mumbles but Magnus heard him enough. "Understand what?! Tell me how am I supposed to understand how you can act so STUPID!!"

"You don't understand how weak you can be! That you have to watch your family struggle in taking care of you because you can't fucking do anything! You don't understand how is it feels like to be at the brim of death, when your life literally flashed before your eyes! You don't get to see your loved ones saying goodbye to you over and over again until they just gave up! Seeing them losing everything they had because of you! Watching your siblings had to gave up their own personal life just so you won't get left behind with yours!"

Alec wiped his tears with his palm before he continued. "I was selfish - yes, but the only thing I thought of was not getting you panicked being stuck here with me! I was thinking of you the whole time and I don't know how am I supposed to let you know. Don't you think I thought of this through?! I've been waiting for someone to save us by now and hope you won't get to know the whole truth. Now the way you reacted, I wish I didn't tell anything at all!" Alec screamed but the shooting pain causing him to kneel back on the ground and Magnus quickly grabbed him by his side.