Poisoned Love

28. More Lies

I rushed to grab my dress and I headed inside the bathroom again and instantly locked it, ignoring Ace calling me. He can't be serious. He couldn't even last a single day before he got back to his bunch of skanks. That made me wonder, is he taking advantage of me? Who am I kidding, of course he is. He wouldn't be having his face eaten off by Penelope if he wasn't taking advantage of me.

I hate the fact that I'm numb when it comes to Ace. I lose my world when I'm with him and enter a completely different and new one. I think about him when I'm not with him. How is this even normal? I want to convince myself that it's just the hormones.

I shrouded myself in my dress and by the time I got out, Penelope was gone. Relief washed all over me but that doesn't change what had happened. Ace sat on the bed, his face full of remorse. But I could care less. I know I shouldn't have expected more from him anyway. What did I expect in the first place? For us to develop feelings for each other and be a couple? For our parents to split so we can be together? For him to commit to me even though we're not officially together?

The little voices in my head telling me to jump on him were driving me crazy. I'm so vulnerable around him and I think he perfectly knows that by now. I looked at him one more time then I stormed out. My anger was clouding my senses so much that I didn't notice he was following me down the street and calling for me to stop.

I'm sure he's fed up by me ignoring him but so am I. He's so hard to figure out. He's so sweet and gentle and then he wakes up and acts like a total jerk. I wanted to say many things to him, but I kept quiet instead. I'm going to let him do the talking.

"Where are you going?"

"Home."

"Let me drive you." He says and he tried to grab ahold of my wrist but I backed away, glaring at him. Seeing him made my anger boil up. He doesn't even seem apologetic. I'm an idiot for thinking for half a second that he wanted more with me.

"I knew it." I whispered lowly. "After you took what you wanted from me, you decided to run off to find some other girl." It wasn't until I was finished with my words that I realized how stupid I sounded. I bet he regrets whatever we've done together.

"No, Lyd. You don't understand." He says and tries to inch closer to me so I can see his eyes softening. I backed away instantly and he didn't dare to take another step.

"Don't call me that. That name is reserved for people who appreciate my worth." I snapped and the warm tears have escaped my swollen and red eyes. I felt a heavy wave of relief crash upon me once I let them out.

"I do appreciate you. What you saw, it's not what you think." He says.

"Really? What sort of explanation do you have for that? Scratch that, what stupid excuse do you have for that?" I say and I can tell my harsh words made him feel slightly defeated. "I know what I saw, Ace."

His eyes told me a story. They held so many emotions back. It's like he was almost afraid to express them so he stayed silent. I nodded as a 'see, I'm right'. I turned on my heel to leave and go someplace to search for a taxi. I feel so lost and stupid. I shouldn't have come and I shouldn't have done what I did with Ace.

I'm aware of how dumb I look for being jealous over it. Not to mention, he's soon to be my stepbrother so there's really no explanation as to why I'm jealous over him. My wrist was grabbed by Ace and he pulled me back to face him. It wasn't a tight grip but it was enough for him to hold me in place. He can't be serious. I looked at him with challenging eyes, knowing damn well that nothing he will say will make me forgive him. At least, not right now.

"Let me drive you home at least. We'll talk in the car." He says. I hate how my body responds to him differently from how my mind works. It's like he has some spell over me. It took me every fibre in my being to shake my head as a 'no'.

"Come on, Lyd." His voice was raspy and he knows it makes me weak. How can he not know? I began to doubt my legs. They'd betray me in no time and lead me to Ace's car.

"What do you think your mother will say?" He says and raises an eyebrow. He was lying about her not being home. I'd slap him but there were too many people around us right now and they were staring at us intensely like we're some crazy couple.

"I hate you." I murmured and I hoped he heard it. I ripped my hand from his grip and he sighed in frustration. Despite my anger, I knew that I couldn't go back home in a taxi so I glared at him and purposefully hit his shoulder as I made way to his car.