Training Mendes // s.m.

twenty

Millie
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I woke up the next morning to knocking on a door. The bed next to me dipped and then rose, feet padded along the floor and then down the stairs. I heard the door pull open and two voices. It was Shawn and another voice. I couldn't identify the second, however it was familiar. I rolled over in the bed to face the wall and tried to fall back asleep.

"Who is here, Shawn? You know the contract with Camila-"

"Yeah, Dylan, I know. Just give me twenty minutes."

"Shawn, we need to tell whoever it is about the contract. You can't be seen with anyone else."

"She already knows, I told her last night."

Dylan! I almost shot out of the bed and grabbed my clothing. I threw on one of Shawn's shirts and grabbed my bag, I basically ran into Shawn's closet and hid in the corner. It was dark and you couldn't really see me if you wanted, even with the light on.

There were steps up the stairs and a knock on the bedroom door. I heard shoe-cladded footsteps and naked feet, assuming Shawn's.

"She already left?" I heard Dylan ask.

"I guess so." Shawn said.

Dylan huffed and I heard his feet lead back down the stairs.

"Thanks mamas." Shawn whispered.

He had no idea where I was either. I felt like I was in high school, hiding from someones parents. I heard his feet walk out the room and down the stairs, I let out a breath I was holding. I waited for the front door to open and close, signaling I was finally able to come out.

I shuffled back into the room and sat on the bed, ready to burst into laughter. I heard Shawn come up the stairs and he came into the room. His face was worried and I immediately started laughing.

"It's not funny Millie." He lightly laughed.

"It really is." I told him.

"It's not, what if he saw you?"

"Well he didn't." I reached my arms out to pull him to me.

I put my knees on the bed and could wrap my arms around his neck. I pressed a long kiss to his lips and his hands went to rest on my hips. I pulled back and smiled.

"It will be okay." I smiled.

"It won't, I'm worried what he'll say when he figures out its you."

"He'll sue me." I shrugged.

"Millie..."

"It's fine." I forcefully chuckled.

It wasn't fine, I worked so hard for everything I have and I really couldn't lose it. Especially what I inherited, that was something I could not lose. My face must have read with a lie because Shawn's eyes were soft looking over my face. He put his hands on my face and kissed my forehead. I wrapped my arms around his torso and rested my head on his chest.

"I guess that goes for no morning sex?"

His chest rumbled as he spoke, the comment making me burst into laughter.

Shawn and I were laid around his house a few hours later. We were scrolling through channels and the media news channel passed. I made him go back, wanting to see the pap photos from yesterday. I bit my lip and remembered, he was dating me..

"Kim Kardashian under fire for her newest Instagram post, here is the photo. She has been accused of photoshopping and darkening herself. Now, we all know the Kardashians photoshop, however fans are upset with the darkening of her body. She has made no comment. Next, Shawn Mendes and Camila Cabello get steamy at a restaurant!"

"I think that's enough." Shawn said.

"No." I held the remote close to my chest.

The commercials went by and I felt Shawn become tense under me. I held my eyes on the TV, waiting to see my boyfriend be making out with another girl who has no clue I exist.

"Welcome back to Media News! I am your host Michelle Hallagan and our topic to start is Mr Mendes and Camila Cabello have a steamy sess outside the health bar! Here are the photos we received! There is no comment from either of them on whether they are dating or not, but obviously these photos prove more than what words could be!"

The photos came up and I was hurt. I felt like he was cheating on me, however it technically would be him cheating on Camila. My heart ached as more photos flashed on the screen. One in particular picked a nerve and it was them against a tree. Shawn's hands were resting on her cheeks and hers were on his chest. They looked like an actual couple.

"She is just a friend, Millie. We've been friends for years." Shawn spoke.

I nodded and changed the channel. I wish he would've changed it earlier.

"Millie..."

"I'm fine." I nodded against his chest.

"You're not. I know you aren't. I wish I could change it, I wish that was you instead." He kept talking.

"Shawn, please just stop."

"Millie, you have to believe me."

"I do."

"So, what's wrong?"

"I feel like we may never be able to do that. You're in that contract for six months, its only been two. It's not going to end." I sighed.

I was amazed I wasn't crying.

"I will try everything to break it, I will. You are worth the risk." He put his hand on my back and rubbed.

"I'm not. It's either I lose everything or you lose a huge part of your fans." I shrugged.

"Maybe this just won't work." I continued.

"Millie, don't say that. You don't mean that." Shawn immediately sat us up.

"I'm serious. I lose everything or you lose your fans. It's not worth it." I avoided his eyes.

"Millie..."

"Shawn, I know you want this to work, but I don't know if it will. We can't be seen in public together, we can't hang out when we want because we always have to look over our shoulders, is that worth it?"

"You're worth it, everything, Millie."

"I can't lose what I made, Shawn. There is stuff I haven't told you, stuff I can't tell you. You can afford to lose a few fans, not many. I can't lose my life. I'll have nothing." I watched my fingers fumble.

"Millie, if you lose everything, I have everything. We can make it work. Please, I love you."

"Shawn."

His hands moved to my face and made me look at him. He brought our lips together and the kiss was slow and passionate.

"Mills, you mean everything to me, okay? That time you were gone was the worst for me. I don't know how I managed to even breathe. I need you more than anyone else, please." His face was soft.

He looked like he was going to cry. I felt bad for making him that way. I sighed and nodded.

"Okay." I nodded.

"We can do this?" He smiled.

"I think we can."

He pressed a hard kiss to my lips and I laughed.

Hi, so I was up till 3 a.m. writing because I was really sad and didn't want to cry a night so that's why you guys got so many chapters :)