Training Mendes // s.m.

thirty

Millie
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We ended up back at the house after dinner. We hadn't broken up, Shawn wouldn't let it happen. I went up to the bedroom and bathroom. I washed my face and took my dress off. Shawn came in and was in boxers.

"Did you actually mean it?"

"No, Shawn. I love you, a lot. Which is why I wanted to end it. I can't give you what you want."

"That's okay." He breathed.

I looked at him and shook my head. I put my hands to his cheeks and brought him to my level, kissing his lips. His hands gripped my waist and he pushed me against the counter. He deepened the kiss and we ended up in the bedroom. He put me on the bed and went to the bed stand.

"I went on birth control, we don't have to use one." I said quickly.

"When?"

"Just recently. I had a doctors appointment the other day and they just sent them in."

He came back over and took off my bra. He connected his lips to my skin and put kisses along it. He left little hickeys along my boobs and kissed down to my underwear. He hooked his fingers and pulled them away. Our heavy breathing was really the only sound in the room at this point.

He kissed up my legs and to my core. He pressed a kiss and it sent shivers over my body. I let out a whimper and he took off his boxers. He brought his face to mine and pressed his lips to mine. He moved himself over my folds and slowly pushed himself in. A loud moan left my lips, the feeling was entirely new.

"Holy fuck." Shawn groaned.

"This is so much better." I moaned.

He slowly moved himself in and out, picking up a rhythm. Our lips were connected, then not, then were. Our moans and breathing were extremely loud at the new, foreign feeling. Eventually, we both came and Shawn landed next to me.

He pressed a kiss to my temple and let out a sigh.

"That was amazing."

"It really was." I laughed.

We both moved to under the blankets and my back was to his chest. His hand was cupping my boob, which I protested, but he thought it was 'comforting.'

"I'm glad I have you." I told him.

"I'm glad I have you." He kissed my cheek.

"I'm sorry about tonight." I said.

"Don't be. That was the best non-break-up-sex I have ever had." He laughed.

I laughed and we both fell silent.

"You really were going to leave?" He whispered.

"Shawn..."

"Tell me."

"I don't want kids. You do. At some point we would break up over it."

"I can compromise." He said.

I sighed and let my eyes close. I went to speak, but I was too exhausted. Shortly after, Shawn's snoring ed the room and I wasn't too far behind.

A few days had gone by and Shawn and I were back to normal. We had Sav and Chris over for dinner, we went on lunch dates, I came with Shawn to the studio, we danced in the kitchen, Shawn sang to me while we made dinner.

It was about two weeks later and Sav had invited me for a girls night. Shawn and Chris were staying at our house while I went to Sav's. I brought a bag, with pjs and clothing for tomorrow. We went to Target for snacks and wandered past the baby section. I sighed and Sav gave me puppy eyes.

"Stop."

"Your kids would be so cute!"

"What's on your finger?"

"Oh, this?" She held up her hand.

There was a big shiny rock on her ring finger. I slapped her and gasped.

"Why didn't you tell me?!"

"It was supposed to be a secret until our engagement photos came back." She smiled.

"But, we need to go to another aisle." She winked.

We went to the feminine aisle and she went to the pregnancy tests. I gasped and slapped her arm again.

"I think I am. I'm not sure." She smiled.

We got two boxes, each had two tests. We checked out and went home. We put our snacks out and Sav took the pregnancy tests to the bathroom.

"I'm nervous. Can we just do a joke one?"

"What do you mean a joke one?" I laughed.

"Take one, for support. Please. I'm freaking out."

"Sav, I'm not taking a pregnancy test." I laughed again.

"Please! I can't do it alone." She begged.

"The shit I do for you kid." I grabbed one.

We both took them and decided to start a movie while we waited. Sav was basically squirming in her seat while we waited for the tests to come back. I ate popcorn and Sav was on her phone.

"You know, we are watching a movie." I kicked her phone.

"I know! Madison texted me. She said her and Jack got into an argument and she wants to come over later."

"Oh, the more the merrier. We can't eat all these snacks by ourselves." I joked.

"She is sleeping over, is that okay?"

"Of course, I love Madison."

I turned back to the TV and the movie was honestly quite boring. Sav had picked it. I didn't even know what it was called.

"She said Jack was really mad about something at the studio and took it out on her. He yelled at her for never cleaning the sink. The sink, are we kidding?!"

I laughed at Sav. She was a very expressive person.

"I'm sure he didn't mean it that way."

"I know, but still. If Chris yelled at me for not cleaning the sink, I would slap him silly."

"Shawn has people who clean his house. It's honestly disturbing. One moment the house is a mess and when I come back its as clean as could be."

Our conversation was cut when her phone timer rang. She shot off the couch and ran to the bathroom. I followed slowly behind her and she handed me mine.

"On three." She squealed.

"One... two... three." I counted.

"Positive."

"Negative."