Training Mendes // s.m.

seventeen

Millie
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Waking up the next morning was weird. I had a weight over my back and I felt hot. I tried to roll over, but the weight refused to let me do so. I opened my eyes and looked over. I saw a head of brown curls and smiled. I moved from under his grip and climbed on his back. I was in his hoodie from last night.

He groaned and sighed. His eyes pushed open and he looked around, realizing his surroundings. His eyes seemed to light up and he moved under my light weight, allowing me to sit on his waist. His hands went to rest on my hips and I smiled.

"Good morning."

"No, good morning to you." He smiled, rubbing his hands up and down my thighs.

"No kisses, morning breath is gross." I said.

He rolled his eyes and his phone dinged. I groaned, my smile instantly disappearing and I rolled off him. I went to the bathroom and brushed my teeth. When I came out, Shawn was already in his boxers and sweatpants. I turned to the floor and picked up what I had on yesterday, peeling his hoodie off and changing there.

I threw his hoodie to him and he sighed.

"I'm sorry, Mills."

"It's fine, I promise." I forced a smile and he came over.

His body towered mine and he put his hands on my hips. He gave me a quick kiss and pulled the hoodie on.

"I'm sorry, Mills. I thought this morning would go different." He sat on the edge of my bed.

"So did I." I sighed, walking to my dresser.

"I'm going to shower, I'll see you later."

I grabbed a set of clothing and went to the bathroom. I heard Shawn sigh behind me and his hands trapped my waist.

"Millie." He turned me around.

"What?"

"Thank you, for last night. I know how much it took in you. After the Jeremy thing, I know how hard that was." He searched my face for anything.

"Yeah, thanks." I nodded, leaving his grasp.

I went into the bathroom and started the shower. I didn't know why I acted like that. I was really happy being with Shawn, but I just gave him one of the biggest things in my life and he left.

Millie, he really didn't have that much of a choice. I already knew to be prepared for pap pictures, so I was already preparing for them in the shower. I showered slowly, not wanting to leave the warm water. I didn't really know what time it was or how long I had been in the shower, so I decided I should probably get out.

I dried my body and let my hair just air dry. I had to go shopping today, for house stuff and groceries. I changed and put on mascara. I walked out to my bed and grabbed my phone, having a message from Ivan. I opened the message and felt my heart drop.

Ivan
Hey Millie! Just checking
in on you, how are you? I
noticed Shawn wasn't home
last night and he wasn't with
Camila...

I bit my lip and tried to think of some reason to cover anything up.

Millie
Hey! I'm doing better!
I wouldn't know, I was with
my bed and Netflix last
night lol

I sent the message and sat on the bed, my towel tightening around my top. I tugged on it slightly to fix it. I waited for his response, watching the typing bubble pop up.

Ivan
I drove by your loft,
saw Shawn's car. I'll
be over in 10

I sighed and immediately went to Shawn's message.

Millie
Ivan knows

A few hours later, after Ivan had left, I finally was able to go grocery shopping. Shawn was fine with Ivan knowing, but I was still on the fence since Ivan and Dylan were really close. I walked up and down the isles of the store, picking out groceries I thought I needed.

Shawn had mentioned how bare my house was and how I needed 'the good snacks' instead of what I had. I checked out and went to my car, loading the groceries in. I had Shawn pick my car up from the hospital a few days ago and park it at my loft. I hadn't been up to driving due to my legs, but I needed to get out of the house.

I drove back to my loft and brought my groceries in. I put them all away and my phone dinged.

Shawn
Coming over in 15 :)

I shook my head at the smile and saw it was from a few minutes ago. I set my phone on the counter and there was a knock on the door. I gave the clock a confused glance and it seemed like too fast for Shawn to be here.

I slowly made my way to the door and went to pull it open. I felt my body smile, until the door finally opened. My smile faded and I felt fear overtake my body. I stared at the person in front of me and froze.

"Millie, babe, please. You know how the guys are." He lightly laughed.

"You know I don't want to." I told him.

"Millie, just once."

"No, I don't want to. Not with you and not now, especially since all your friends are here."

He slowly moved towards me and pressed his lips to my neck. We had done things, oral, not what his friends had dared him. I had no doubt he was up with them on the plan. He had been wanting to take it further for a few months.

"Please, I don't want to."

"Millie, babe, come on. You love me right?"

"I do, but I-"

"So, just let it happen babe."

He moved my hair behind my shoulder and kissed down my neck and to my collarbones. I gently put my hands to his chest and told him no again.

"Millie, I'm not asking."

"Jeremy! Come on."