Training Mendes // s.m.

thirty-four

Millie
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The night after the engagement, Shawn and I had mind blowing sex. We went slow and embraced every second of it.

A few days later, Shawn's family flew in and we had dinner at the restaurant that I tried to break up with Shawn in. We told his parents about me being pregnant, they were so happy. His mom didn't like me all that much and asked what happened with Camila. She favored Camila over me, but I just let it be.

The next morning Shawn and I woke up to his phone being blown up. Dylan had called and said someone told the media I was pregnant. I called Ethan and he mentioned he told Stacey, which was the only person who would have told the media.

Every media article took it and ran, saying many horrible things. Some were good, most were horrible. Camila texted me and said congratulations, which was weird. I was constantly being surrounded when I left the house and Shawn eventually had to start coming with.

Shawn and I lived in our little bubble in the house. When he wasn't at the studio or at meetings, we danced around the house, made food, went swimming, had sex, showered together. It was perfect. Shawn called me his soon to be wife and would kiss my stomach all the time.

The next week was my doctor's appointment and Shawn came with. They took my blood and tested it, coming back quickly with my information. They rushed it because Shawn was a celebrity and scared them.

We were sat in the office and the doctor came in with a worried face. We were both holding hands and happy as could be.

"Look, many times things happen and we don't have explanations to them..."

"What's wrong?" Shawn asked.

"You aren't pregnant, Miss Evans." The doctor frowned.

"What?" Shawn and I both said.

"No, I took a test and it said I was, my best friend and I took them together."

"Perhaps they got switched. I'm afraid the blood test shows you are not pregnant."

Shawn stayed quiet.

"Are you sure?" I asked.

"I am." He brought over the paper and it said NEGATIVE in big letters next to the pregnancy slot.

I felt sick. I looked at Shawn and he looked broken, distraught.

"I am deeply sorry. I will see you two soon." He smiled, weakly, and left.

"Shawn.."

"We need to get home." He cleared his throat and stood up.

"Shawn, we need to talk about this."

"We need to get home." He repeated.

We drove home, the car ride extremely quiet and sad. We got home and went inside.

"You aren't pregnant, which means Savanah and Chris are."

I was conflicted. I was so happy I wasn't pregnant, but Shawn was so upset so I was upset for him.

"I need to take a break. We need a break. I think we should cut off the engagement." He looked at the floor.

"Shawn, we don't need to-"

"Millie, we do. We can go slow now. You aren't pregnant which means we can be in a normal relationship now."

"You don't have to leave though, we can work through this." I trailed off, reaching for his hand.

"I'm going to go." He pulled away and went upstairs.

He got a bag of clothing and left, leaving me in our huge house. Alone. I called Savanah and told her what happened, she screamed when I told her she was pregnant and not me. She came over as fast as she could, Madison coming after.

I cried for hours. Sav and Madison tried to get me to eat and drink, but all I could do was cry. All the times we touched my belly or kissed it, nothing existed in it. It was in Savanah. I resented her, but was glad it wasn't me.

I wasn't ready. I couldn't have a kid! I didn't want kids. Fuck off! Yes I do. I did now. Shawn was so long and gentle. We were so in love and happy. Now we are ruined. Were we even dating now that he broke the engagement?

I took the ring off and set it in the kitchen drawer. I had to tell my family and we had to tell his family. I groaned and put my head in my hands. I groaned and wiped my face.

I went back into the living room and Madison and Sav were talking. I came and sat back down, sighing. They stopped talking and Sav gave me a hug. I looked at her and she gave me a weak smile.

"Congrats." I chuckled.

"We will have a party soon, let me contact everyone that you told." She nodded and took my phone.

She called my family and told them it was a mix up and they all were relieved and excited I wasn't actually pregnant. She called Shawn's sister, Aaliyah, and told her what happened. She said she would tell her parents everything and said she was sorry for Shawn's outburst.

Sav and I cuddled and watched movies, Madison had left to go see Jack before he left for something. She wasn't very specific, which was weird since she told everyone everything.

We fell asleep and the movie ended.

Three days had gone by and Shawn never came home. It was weird because he owned the house and I was just here. I moped around the house all day and Sav and Madison came to check on me every now and then.

I was crying all the time and slept most of the day. I had gotten texts from most of the people in our friend group and ignored them all. I didn't want to talk to anyone besides Shawn right now.

I was in the shower, sitting on the floor and the door opened.

"Savanah, I'm fine. Go home."

"I am home." I heard, quickly finding out it was Shawn.

I stayed in the shower, staying quiet. His hand reached in and turned the water off. He held the door open and gave me his hand. He helped me off the floor and wrapped a towel around me. My face was still puffy and splotchy from crying all the time.

His face was soft but his eyes were hurt. I sat on the toilet and he sat on the edge of the tub.

"Now what?" I asked, looking at him with teary eyes.

"I think..."