I'm Dating My Cold Professor

Chapter 10

We didn’t talk after that. The whole ride has been quiet. It was quite intense. He just dropped me off my house. He’s upset and I am too. It’s not his fault that I got into an accident. He was there too. He could have been hit too. But it’s not. It was me. I’m upset because they kept this away from me. I’m upset because I can’t remember anything. I won’t possibly remember all of it. And I won’t be able to remember the memories I have for the last six months. I am upset.

I didn’t talk to him until I got out from his car. I just heard him sigh. I need to think. I need to remember. I need to let this anger go. Then, the next day, I remembered that I applied a work in Mira’s cafe. I put my palm on my face.

I forgot about that. Everything that happened to me is so surprising I almost forgot everything else. So I went downstairs and talked to Gajeel before he went to his work.

“They will understand it, Juvia. You don’t need to work for them if you can’t.” He said. I am also quite angry at him. Of course, he was the first person I trusted that wouldn’t lie to me.

“Ah, yes, ‘cause everything was just an act.” I said sarcastically. I rolled my eyes.

Gajeel sighed. “Look, Juvia, that is not an act. It was hard on us to keep it like that. I know you’re upset about us and everything. But-“

“That was the best for me!” I cut him. “That freaking line again!” I walked out and slammed the door in my room.

Then they should have not act like that. I would rather know the whole truth than know nothing! This is absurd. Why can’t anyone understand me? Were they right in their decision that it was the best for me? To keep lying on me? To keep on living not remembering all of them until my brain remembers again? What if I can’t remember them? Of course, it was upsetting. I’m so confuse. This is so frustrating.

Since, I have no classes today. I locked myself in my room. I have to think clearly. I have to calm myself not be mad at them. So I called Levy in the afternoon. I told her if she can accompany me to Mira’s café and she agreed.

By an hour, Levy came into our house. Gajeel will be home at dinner, he said. I sent her a text that I’ll be going out with Levy. I didn’t even look at his reply.

“Hi Juvia!” Levy greeted. She seems spaced out with me so I smiled at her.

“Hi!” I greeted.

“So…they would understand if you don’t want to work in Mira’s café anymore. You’re not new to us, Juvia.” Levy started.

“I want to go at the café first, Levy. I am so confuse and upset about everything. I don’t know if I still want to work there or to go to school because of this…”

“Oh no, Juvia. We did this for you. Don’t think of quitting school…”

“Levy, I don’t know. How will I continue things if I already have forgot what I’ve started?” I asked.

“Juvia, we decided not to tell you about us because we wanted you to start a new life. A life where you will not worry about these things. Where you can forget about the past that’s been haunting you. The moment we knew what happened to you before you moved here in Magnolia and the moment you remember them makes us more…sad. So we decided that after you have suffered, we should have make things easier for you.” She said sadly.

I get it. They wanted an easy life for me so I won’t have to suffer anymore as I have been suffering now. The nightmares are still there. There are still traces that keep on haunting me. But that doesn’t mean that I’d have an easy life if they kept this away from me. I will have a harder life if they keep things easier for me.