accomplice | ethan dolan

seventeen

ethan

it's been two months since the night jade was kidnapped by the changrettas, and she's a completely different person.

i still lov-

i still have feelings for her, but it has been hard for the both of us. jade especially.

she hasn't told me much of what happened - she hasn't told anyone - but considering the state we found her in it's easy enough to imagine.

the first thing she did when we brought her home that night was cut her hair, right up to her shoulders, which was a shock to us all because she loved her long hair.

she's still dealing with the trauma.

she flinches anytime someone touches her. she's afraid to leave the house alone during the day and refuses to leave at night. she's terrified of intimacy.

i haven't held her, kissed her or slept with her since the night before she was kidnapped.

i'm not complaining, i want whatever's best for her. i just wish i knew what it was. i feel so useless not being able to comfort her.

she doesn't feel comfortable sharing a bed right now. so i've been sleeping on an inflatable mattress beside her bed, to be there for her when she wakes up from having nightmares.

she's having nightmares every night and panic attacks every day.

it's been a horrible two months for her and i want to make everyone responsible pay for it.

including noah, because it was his idea to get involved with the changrettas. he doesn't even seem concerned about jade right now.

"ethan" grayson says surprised when he comes into our house, "i didn't think you'd be home"

"i just had to grab some clothes" i mutter as bonnie stands behind him shyly.

"how's jade doing?" he asks.

"not good gray, thanks to your girlfriend" i glare at bonnie.

"i'm not-"

"i don't care what you are, grayson shouldn't be fucking the girl who gave jade up" i scoff, cutting her off.

"ethan" he warns.

"i'm so sorry, i never meant for any of this to happen" she says.

"well it did, and the only reason you're not paying for it is because my brother won't let me touch you" i spit.

"that's enough" grayson snaps, "get your clothes or whatever you need and go. it's not bonnies fault" he defends her.

"she gave jade up to a mafia!" i yell, "but whatever, fuck who you want"

"i'm sorry about him" i hear grayson tell her as i'm going upstairs.

fuck him and his snitch girlfriend anyways.

i go into my room and throw a handful of clean clothes into a duffle bag before leaving again.

when i arrive back at jade's i realise zacks car is gone. it's dark out so i know jade wouldn't have left the house, meaning she's alone.

i hate the thought of her alone, it's how the changrettas managed to kidnap her.

i find jade sitting at the bottom of the stairs crying, when i come back into her house.