accomplice | ethan dolan

thirty one

"i can't believe i'm home" ethan admits as we walk into the house.

"i can't believe grayson managed to lose the cops" i add.

"ethan!" bonnie smiles pulling him into a hug when she comes downstairs.

"it's good to see you bon" he smiles back, "is lucy awake?" he asks impatiently.

"she just fell asleep" she frowns.

"i have to see her" he says and i follow him upstairs.

"she's going to be so excited to see you" i admit, taking my suitcases out of my closet.

"i can't believe i could've been spending the rest of my life without her" his voice cracks, "and without you" he mumbles as he turns around to look at me.

"hey" i whisper, "you're home now, it's okay"

"i-" his voice cracks again, "i lied you know? i wasn't fine. i was terrified thinking i wouldn't get to spend the rest of my life with you" he finally lets the tears out that he's been holding in.

"you're okay now baby, it's okay" i gulp pulling him into a hug, "you're home now, that's all that matters"

"i don't want to lose you ever again" he holds me tightly.

"you won't. i promise"

"you're all that matters" he mutters into the crook of my neck, "you and lucy"

i'm lost for words, seeing him so vulnerable, i don't know what to say. i pull away to kiss him.

he kisses me back passionately, before we're interrupted by lucy crying.

"i love you" he kisses my forehead before taking lucy out of her crib.

"hi baby girl!" he picks her up and she immediately stops crying, "i missed you too" he laughs before kissing her cheek.

she pokes his face, making him smile.

"don't mind daddy" he blushes, "i just love you so much, it made me upset" he explains to her, even though she has no idea what he's saying.

"what should i pack?" i ask him, staring at the empty suitcases on my bed, "i don't know where we're going"

"just throw whatever in it, we'll buy anything else we need" he shrugs.

with everything going on, i'm thankful we don't have to worry about money.

i pack as much clothes as i can while ethan keeps lucy entertained.

they both fall asleep and when i look up to see them my heart melts. lucy fell asleep cuddled into her dads chest and they look adorable.

i don't want to wake them up, but i know we have to leave as soon as we can.

"ethan" i whisper, leaning across the bed to nudge his leg, "we've got to go"

"mmm" he mumbles.

"we haven't got time e, get up" i tell him sternly.

"sorry" he sighs sitting up, "let's get this little one dressed and we'll leave" he yawns placing lucy on the bed gently, trying not to wake her up.

i try to put her jacket on without waking her, but she wakes up screaming crying.

"i'm sorry baby, but we've got to go" i whisper, trying to calm her down but it's impossible.

"jade" ethan takes my hand, "stop"

"it's not ideal, but i have to get her dressed. we have to go"

"no, i can't do it" he shakes his head, "look at her. this is what we'll be doing to her for the rest of her life"