But He Loves Me~~{Tyrus} COMPLETED

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TW: this chapter contains mentions of rape, abuse and suicide. I will put a trigger warning before the section it is mentioned, if you are uncomfortable with this then feel free to skip the section or even the entire chapter.

•Cyrus•
Today is the day. The day that could change my life forever. I can be happy after today. I don't have to live in fear after today. Hopefully, at least. Today is the day that I take Jonah to court. May his bitter soul rot in hell.

"Hey." I spun around from my mirror, seeing TJ standing in my doorway. He was wearing a blue button down shirt and a pink tie, both of which I bought for him. Although he was dressed up for his court presence, he still had converse sneakers on his feet which made me laugh. My own smile feels so foreign on my face, but it feels nice.
"Hi, Baloo." He walked to me, taking my hand and squeezing it tightly. That's what we've replaced hugging with until I'm comfortable again.
"Are you ready for today?" He questioned softly, fixing my hair a little bit. I nodded, breathing out in a quick puff.
"Yeah. Just a bit nervous, is all. My hands keep shaking." He chuckled a bit, looking at mirror to make sure his hair was okay.

          It's been about a month since my... episode. That's what James has been calling it. I don't really like that term though, it makes no sense as to why we can't call it what it was. My suicide attempt. My sixth suicide attempt. My relapse. The moment in my life that hurt me. The moment that hurt TJ. I moment I hurt TJ, when I told myself I never would. I gave up. And Goodman's don't give up.

         TJ has been here the whole time. I was put on a one week hold in the hospital, mainly to recover physically but also to recover mentally. Every single day that I was there, TJ was there too. They kept the other bed in the room empty, for TJ. It's easy to do so because there's a separate wing in this hospital for suicide attempts, and not many people in Shadyside try to commit. Therefore, there's always an extra bed.

          His dad, Lawrence Kippen, doesn't care that he has been here. He thinks it's nice. Because of it, I've gotten a bit close to his sister Amber. My mom likes the fact that I've made a new friend, which I think is because I don't make friends often. Amber will be there today, along with Buffy, Andi, TJ, my mom, James, my dad, and surprisingly the whole football team. It would seem they were there for Jonah, but they're going for me.

          Two days after my attempt, the football team piled into the room. At first, I grasped TJ's hand for dear life in fear that they were here to hurt me for putting their Captain in jail. But, each one gave me a flower or a plush toy and swore to protect me. They told me that Jonah was off the football team, that none of them could believe he was capable of this. It was sweet, it really was. But...that means everyone knows.

I hadn't gone back to school since the incident, TJ thought it would be better if I didn't. And I agreed. I've been taking classes that Jefferson sets up online, but I'm going back as soon as the court thing is over. I'm actually itching to go back, to know what people are saying.

"What've they been saying? At school...if it's bad I still wanna know." I whispered, sitting on my bed and looking at TJ. My hands folded in my lap as I tried to steady them.
"Most have been saying they're going to the trial, actually. Skipping school for it. A group of fucking vsco girls are calling it rapist death day." I smiled a little, but I knew there was something else.
"You're leaving something out, Teej. You need to tell me." He took a deep breath, letting it out and leaning against the wall.
"Reed beat up Lester." I looked up, knowing the names of his two friends.
"Why would he do that?" Another deep breath.
"Lester said that...if you didn't ask for it then it wouldn't have happened." He stopped, I know that isn't all he said. Tears prickled my eyes, but I wanted him to keep going.
"That isn't all, Baloo. And you know it." I replied sternly, wiping my eyes
"He tried to say that you sent nudes to all the guys in the school. Everyone denied it, of course, because they felt for you. But Reed thought he should be punished. Reed and Lester both got suspended, but there was a protest to get Reed back in school." I smiled again, at least there was only one person who thought I was a whore.
"How'd the protest go?"
"Good. Reed's one month suspension was lifted after two days." I gasped, making TJ chuckle.
"One month!?" He moved towards me, grabbing my hand and pulling me up.
"Yes, that kid almost put Lester in the grave."