Light Me Up

Chapter 4 : Absolutely Nothing

A few days later

I haven't seen Enzo since we first slept together. I woke up in bed alone the next morning, terrified as to what had just happened. Caroline had been too busy to talk all week so I had no idea what to do now. I picked up my phone to try her again but just as she answered, I heard the front door open. It was Enzo. Not knowing what to do I ran into the bathroom and turned the water on.

"Bonnie?" She said "I can't even hear you what's that noise?"

"It's the water" I explain "Enzo just got back and I don't want him to hear us"

"What?"

"I need advice" I whisper "We... we kind of"

"Oh my god!" She squealed, realizing "Really? When?"

"That day" I reply

"Wow you wasted no time"

"Now what do I do?"

"Well what you don't do is hide out in the bathroom"

"I don't know what to say" I admit "How do you even act after you sleep with someone"

"Bonnie this isn't the first time you ever had sex"

"I've never had sex with anyone I wasn't in a relationship with"

"Well do you want a relationship with Enzo?"

"I don't know" I exclaim

That's what I said out loud but I knew on the inside that I did. I haven't been with anyone since what happened with Kai, leading me to break up with Jeremy and that was almost three years ago. Getting to know Enzo, it's crazy to even think about it but I think I actually like him, maybe even love him.

Caroline sighs

"Ok just act normal, pretend it never happened"

"What?" I ask, confused

"If he cares about making this a real relationship then he'll make an effort, if it was just a one time thing then he'll do the same"

"What if he's following the same logic"

"Well if you don't care then why does it matter?" She questioned

I open my mouth to say something. She had planned this.

"Care, you know me... One night stand's aren't my thing" I sigh "Never have been"

"That's not a bad thing Bonnie. You care about people" She replies "Now is Enzo one of those people"

"What if he is, but I'm not?" I ask, worried "What if to him that's all it was. A hook-up?"

"If that's the case, then it's gonna hurt. But there is nothing you can do" She tells me "But you can't push him away assuming you know what he's thinking. You have to talk about it"

"Ok. Ok. Thank you" I whisper after a while

She smiles

"Make me proud Bonnie Bennett!" She cheers as I hang up on her

I turn the water off and head out, secretly hoping he was gone already, but as I expected he wasn't.

"Hey" He says, his tone gentle but showing no emotion.

I had no idea how he felt.

"Hi" I reply, trying to mimic the same tone.

If he didn't like me I wasn't going to be a desperate girl begging for his attention.

"I just wanted some coffee my head is killing me" I explain

"Oh here I just made some, come sit down"