My Dear Son (A Your Lie In April/ Shigatsu Wa Kimi No Uso Fanfiction)

9. A Desolate Place

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John POV:

The next day after my son had a major convulsion, it definitely shocked me when I heard from a nurse that my son had a cardiac arrest. I rushed to him as soon as possible.

"Get me the defibrillators, now!" I shouted to my nurses while I give him CPR. "Quick!!!"

As fast as they could, they gave me the paddles and I shot my son with electricity to reactivate his heart. I did keep giving my son some shots twice but he still remained unconscious and his heart hasn't started beating yet. I know that as a father, I shouldn't give up. It was luck that finally, on the third try, my son's heart began beating again and it was then that my father-in-law arrived in my son's room and he looked very much hurt, too. "Get out of the room. I'm pulling you off Kousei's case."

Both of my nurses looked surprised too. I stared at them and that's when they knew that I'm dismissing them and they have to give us privacy.

"I want to be the one to help my son be cured! I can't leave my son," I spoke to him straight. "He almost died today. I want to keep myself near my son as long as it is possible."

"I'm not firing you. You've got to think clearly and you have some other more important business to attend to," he told me. "Do it rather than coop yourself here."

"My business is here, father," I cried out to him. "My son is still fighting for his life."

"Don't you think looking for his perpetrators and the syndicate that made him like this is more important John?" he asked me. "He already gave us a clue. His job is done and his body had only automatically shut down as he was too exhausted and in pain. We have to at least help him recover in peace."

"It's an order?" I asked him.

"Yes, it's an order," he ordered. "You're still my doctor here after all." He checked my son's vital signs and his pulse after I gave my son a breathing mask.

I can still see him struggling to take in oxygen and he's been so pale recently. He took out a flashlight and checked my son's eyes which made me wonder why he was doing that. It worried me though when my son didn't react at all and he still seemed to move so still.

"What's wrong with him?" I asked him. "He just had convulsions yesterday and had a cardiac arrest today."

"He had fallen into a very deep sleep, John," Arima Satoru told me. "He's in a comatose state as his brain was too affected by the sudden shock he just had."

His words made me freeze. I can't and I don't want to believe him. I tried shouting at my son to wake up but he didn't flinch at all. "Son!!!"

Satoru pushed me away from my son and shouted at me while he's holding my collar, "Be a man, John! Those men from the syndicate are still walking free. I had also learned that one of them infiltrated the hospital and I have to catch whoever that is. You can't work here if you are to find him. I can't also keep you near him as his doctor as it's against the law. Be happy that the government didn't learn that I allowed you to be his doctor."

"If I'm not near my son, who would be his oncologist?" I collapsed on my feet due to the heavyweight I'm experiencing right now. My tears grew and cascaded down my cheeks so bitterly. "Father, I can't lose my son. Saki already left. I will be very much alone if he passes away, too."

"You cannot fight the syndicate by that attitude. Besides, his friends are ready to help you," he told me as he helps me sit outside of the ICU where my son is. "I know that it hurts but use that pain to drive you to give your son the justice he deserves. Show them that a prince like you cannot be played with."

I was left hanging on my bitter emotions and painful memories of the time my son hadn't been kidnapped. I was always busy and I can't even watch my son graduate pre-school or watch him practice the piano since I had been busy helping other people that I didn't notice that I have forgotten the child I should have protected first in the very first place.

I was so bitter that I wasn't Saki's oncologist. I blamed myself and told myself that if I wasn't busy being a businessman and a doctor at the same time, my wife shouldn't have died. I took the position immediately when I discovered he has Leukemia after I sent him here. I didn't even try helping him move on from his mother's death. I can't believe how much of a failure I am. As my tears grow more and more agonizing, my chest felt a sharp turn, making my hands clench on my lab coat.

"Son... Please wake up!!! Please don't leave me alone."

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"What happened yesterday?" Hiroko asked me in the reception room of the hospital after she saw me wearing just a shirt and pants. "Were you fired?"

"Fired? No," I answered her. "Father just wanted me to distance from being Kousei's oncologist."

"That's a smart move," she told me. "He knows you well."

"Why won't he know me so well? I've been here longer than when I'm with my son. You know that I sleep here," I regretfully told her. "I should have gone back home to him and protected him when I got a chance. I'm a failure of a father."

"I'm sure your son doesn't think like that," she told me as we walk together to visit Kousei. "So, how is he?"

My eyes began to wander away from her and I stopped walking.

Kousei's very important to her, too.

I can't forget that my son's her piano student and she treats him as if he's her son. How will I be able to tell her that my son went into a coma?

I don't even know who's taking care of him, now.

"You're too silent, John," she spoke up. "Is there something you're having a hard time telling me?"

My hands went into huge fists. "He had a cardiac arrest yesterday and he's unconscious right now. He's in a coma, Hiroko."

I held her fast when I noticed that her knees went weak. "He's going to wake up, right?"

"He will wake up, Hiroko. He will be with us, again," I told her. "Please tell his friends that I want to meet them tomorrow. Satoru told me to cooperate with the police and help them give my son justice. As long as the White Flag Syndicate is still operating, I won't stop. They have to be punished."

"Don't go too deep, John," she told me as she hugs me tight. "Kousei's going to look for you when he reopens his eyes."

"I will go home," I vowed to her. "He will go home, too."

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