Wow it's been a while since I've updated! Sorry about that guys. Been busy with school and stuffs. So it's September 10, 2019 and believe it or not, it's only 4:45 pm, I'm not updating at midnight this time lmao. School started last Thursday for me but for the grade 9's (freshmen for all y'all Americans) it was last Wednesday.
~ time skip ~
Ok so now it's 5:05, of course as soon as I start writing and turn on YouTube my mom comes to call me for dinner. Anyways about school. It's not been good to me. Today in particular has been pretty bad. If I wasn't having a panic attack or flashbacks I was incredibly depressed. Always at least one of them. Yesterday I kept thinking that my friends didn't want me around and didn't like me and I was a burden and whatnot. Obvs that's not true, I know it's not, I always have, and I got confirmation today. Also I was getting annoyed at little things when I came home but I'm rlly good at internalizing and not giving any hints to my annoyance. I found a damp cloth in the cupboard under my sink like nana srsly do u want to grow mold in MY bathroom that YOURE borrowing while you're here? Also she literally takes boiling hot showers. I like me a good hot shower but I don't shower in water literally hot enough to boil an egg. I'm gonna go draw up a visual for y'all and insert it here:
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She literally puts it all the way up and leaves it there. Our shower we set the heat separately from on/off so she leaves it there when she turns it off like I'm glad I saw that before I died. Also she took the inner shower curtain and put it on the outside. When one does that the water spills out onto the floor so that's not good. She also unhooked it from the edge so it moves around too much and whatever. Also the floor towel was still damp so like wtf. Ye I'm irritable today. On a different note tho, on Sunday I went to bed at 9:30 pm because I had school the next day but me being me I was thinking a lot and ended up surfing the internet again and ended up teaching myself how to read and write Minecraft Enchanting Table.... Ye I'm a major nerd lmao. I wrote stuff on my friends arms and all over my work and stuff alongside my random sketches. It actually makes me so happy idk why lol. Here's a secret message for you!
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I'm such a nerd lol. So yeah, asides from all my attacks lately, today in particular, it's not been that bad. This was a pretty short update ig. Ps- my nana and papa are here bc my papa has throat cancer but he'll be ok they can remove it safely but he's gonna need one of those false voice box things. It's ok he's gonna be fine, we're all good. So that's all for today ig, thank you all for reading, ilyasm ❤️❤️❤️
