The Story Of My Life

Easter

Sunday April 12, 2020, 7:16 pm

Hey! Happy Easter to everyone who celebrates it! And to everyone who doesn't, happy Sunday/weekend/quarantine.

I've already had an eventful day lmao.

So yesterday I was at my dads and ended up filming a vid for my gaming channel. It took a lot out of me so I napped for a bit. Then I didn't fall asleep until 5am bc I have problems.

Every time I think I don't need my sleepy drugs I end up being awake forever but last night took it farther than usual.

Then I woke up at frickin 8 am bc my sis came to get me for Easter morning. So I'm running on 3 hours. I actually feel kinda good tho which is weird.

So I ate a bunch of junk, had a shower then headed back downstairs to work.

I e spent my whole day editing the vid I filmed yesterday and I'm not even done yet. I'm exhausted and easily distracted so now I'm writing this instead of working.

Now if you know my schedule, you know that Sundays are my personal work days. In particular I always film 2 drawing vids for the week, edit them, schedule them, then move on so I have the week for school work.

Not today.

I've only worked in this one vid today. And I have another vid that'll take even longer to edit. Plus anime is calling and YouTube notifs are starting to pile up already.

So I'm gonna have a busy week.

On a high note tho, I made more friends today! Fan fics are surrounded by the best people and it's beautiful and always so nice to socialize.

So I was adopted by Nightshadeq66675 with Eagleeye108 and am now part of another family. I love being a weeb.

Also yesterday I decided I'd try to break my habit of eating/picking at my fingers. I'm still clean but it's really hard and I'm chewing on my lips more as well as picking at my face/arms/back more. I'm letting myself do it tho in hopes that it'll keep me away from my fingers.

If I can make it to May then I should be able to break it for good. Hopefully. It's really hard. Especially with adhd and ptsd hdbdddh.

So life's been good to me lately. I talked to my therapist on Thursday and it was great. I talked a lot abt my alters and it felt really relieving to be able to speak so openly abt them.

I've found myself referring to us more in plural pronouns (ex. Us, we) rather than singular (ex. Me, I). I think it has smthn to do with being isolated so I'm more in tune with them without as many other people around to distract me.

I really should be working but I just wanted to take a quick break to update and wish everyone well. Ilyasm!💙💙💙💙