Borahae (BTS reverse harem)✔️

Love Myself

Over the next couple of days, the guys are in and out of the apartment as they enjoy their time off. They hit up museums and parks. They visit friends and family. They go shopping, dine at their favorite restaurants, and enjoy doing all the things that regular people our age do. And while they invite me along for most of these activities, I turn them down, content to stay at the apartment. It's hard enough for them to get out and do the things they miss. It'd be even more hectic if I were to tag along which would only prove to be a headache for them when they so desperately need to relax. So as much as I want to peruse an exhibit with Joon hand in hand or drink coffee in a cafe across from Yoongi, I can't. And I won't let them sit at home with me either.

"What's on the agenda for today?" I ask the guys at breakfast. Well, what's left of the guys. Jin is still spending time with his parents and Tae is off with his actor hyungs. Even Jungkook took a quick trip home to spend his birthday with his family, something I was a little bummed about but genuinely happy considering he hadn't spent the day with them in several years. Besides, giving him his gift when he gets home will be that much sweeter.

"I'm going to a comic book cafe and then some shopping," Jimin answers beside me. "Will you come? I was supposed to take you, remember?"

I shake my head. "Sorry, baby. You know it'll be insane. Pick out something good to read to me."

His expression falls. "But I want you to come. I don't care what people think. Let them see."

I lean over and touch my lips to his cheek and nuzzle him with my nose. Luckily, there was no awkwardness between us after the other night and Jimin has opted to keep our little secret between us if only to heighten the experience. When I asked if it was his first time the next morning, he surprisingly answered no. Shook wasn't enough to describe what I was.

"It was a long time ago," he informed me. "During trainee days."

"You were just a teenager," I worried.

"We used to have girl trainees then. It happened in a practice room when I stayed late one night. It was terrible."

"That's the only time?"

He nodded. "I was embarrassed. I only told TaeTae and Joonie-hyung."

I touched a hand to his cheek. "Why were you embarrassed, baby?"

"I didn't wait for marriage or even love. It wasn't special. I wasted it."

That made me feel incredibly sad for him, but also a little bad about myself. What we did may have felt good, but was it special to him? And since there was no chance in hell that we'd be married, was he just continuing to waste more of himself with me?

I look over at Jimin as he chews his breakfast and I smile softly. I wouldn't do that to him again. I wouldn't take from him unless he was sure of what he was giving me. I know we're just having fun, but maybe having a heart to heart with him is necessary if we want to continue these naughty little trysts.

"I wanted to go to a museum today," Joon answers across from me. "There's a new exhibit. I can arrange to go when no one is there. Come with me?"

"I wish I could. Take lots of pictures and tell me all about it tonight, ok? I want to know everything."

I hate turning him down. Joon is such a fascinating person. His love for art, humanities, and nature are so inspiring, I could honestly spend hours just hearing him speak at length about all his favorite pieces and quotes. As much as I'd love to have him as my personal tour guide, I don't want to bring chaos to the activities that recharge him.

Yoongi informs us that he's working on projects outside the group to further establish himself as a top producer so he'd be at the studio today. And that leaves Hoseok.