THE NEW BOY | 16+✔️

Chapter 19

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Hunter and I have been cuddling on the hotel bed for about an hour without talking, It's nice and comforting. I know he's still awake because he's running his hand through my hair which is sending me to sleep. We have school tomorrow and I need to get up early so I have enough time to go home for clothes and my backpack. I should really text my dad telling him I won't be home tonight otherwise he'll worry and I don't want that.

I move off Hunter's chest and get my phone to text my dad, I tell him exactly where I am because I don't like lying to him, we've always been honest with each other. He replies to be careful and said he'd see me tomorrow morning. When I put my phone back on the table I turn to see Hunter sitting at the foot of the bed as he glances up at me and then looks at his busted knuckles.

"I'm going for a shower to clean up", he walks to the bathroom and closes the door behind him.

He doesn't seem like his normal self and it's breaking my heart, no witty comments or inappropriate comments. Before I could think my feet are already in the bathroom to try comfort him in the time of need. Hunter has one had on the wall looking down at his feet with water running down his face, his tattooed back towards me. He obviously didn't hear me come in because he hasn't looked in my direction. I slide my dress off down my arms and it drops to the floor. I open the glass shower door and step inside, I wrap my arms around his waist resting my head on his back, he lets out a sigh dropping his head down more.

"I think you should go back home", he says sounding defeated.

"What?", Did I hear him correctly?

"I can't do this", he sighs again.

"Do what!?", I snap.

"This...us, I'm not good for you Brin", he calmly says.

"Hunter.. please talk to me", I beg tightening my grip around his waist, I know he's hurting.

"I can't Brin, that's why I need to let you go"

I lift my head and I unwrapped my arms from around him, "No...Hunter! please don't, look at me", I feel a lump forming in my throat.

"Brinley, I'm not good for you", he sadly says turning around and staring me in the eye.

"You don't get to decide that Hunter!", I raise my voice.

"You don't know what I've done Brinley so I can decide, I don't want to hurt you...anymore", he spits. He steps out the shower wrapping a towel around his toned torso and I follow wrapping a towel around my body, following him into the room.

"No you don't get to decide Hunter! I don't care what you've done, you're different now and as for hurting me leaving me is hurting me, we just become official!", I shout.

"We didn't! I can't drag you into my mess, you deserve much better!"

"Just stop it Hunter! Why are you trying to push me away! Tell me what is so bad that you feel that I deserve better!", I'm starting to get angry because he won't tell me anything and he just dismisses it.

"Do you want me to tell you how much I was in pain growing up! How I would watch my father come home drunk every night and argue with my mother, call her names and sleep with other women. how he would beat the shit out of me my whole life. I let him do those things and I never fought back! I got in with the wrong fucking group! Taking drugs, drinking, fighting, I was lost... so fucking lost. Then I lost my mother and my father blamed me for it! She got ill, I made her ill with all my bullshit! I didn't even say goodbye because I was off doing drugs with fucking idiots that didn't care about me. That's why we moved here because I couldn't fucking help myself with drugs and women everyday! I had people after me for the shit I did and I hate myself! I hate myself so much Brin, when I wrapped my hands around your throat that broke me, I didn't want to lose control and I don't ever want to lose control like that again. You can't fix me no one can, I've already figured that out. I've been a fucking mess my whole life, I'm a junky fuck and I don't deserve to be here just like my father said, it should have been me not my mother! Don't you see that!", he says clenching his fists.